Chris Partsch
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Why I Kept Attracting Men Who Weren’t Out of the Closet
It all started from an early age. I realized I was in love with my best friend from 12-18. At first, I didn't realize it because obviously at such a young age, who could? We would go on an adolescent double date with two girls, and the entire time I was pretending to make moves on the girl I had been stuck with, I would have this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. I took time to try and process what was happening. Was I jealous of him? No, that wasn't it because we were equally popular and equally attractive. That's when I realized it wasn't me being jealous of him, it was me being jealous of the girl he was with. He became the standard for what I would attract in my life. Longing for someone who could not give me back what I wanted, either because the feelings weren't there or he wasn't comfortable with his sexuality.
By Chris Partsch6 years ago in Humans