Diary of a Porn Addicts Partner
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Hello there. My boyfriend is a porn addict going through the early stages of recovery. This is my journey...
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He Slept with His Ex
As the saying goes, "Things must get worse before they can get better." After minor successes and a ton of attempts to help him get his addiction under control, all hell broke loose. We have some issues outside of the addiction that had previously caused some unease in our relationship. I thought we had moved past those problems, but instead, one conversation about them brought our whole relationship crashing down.
By Diary of a Porn Addicts Partner5 years ago in Humans
One Step at a Time
Though this whole process has been long and hard, I finally hit my breaking point a few days ago. We had an argument about whether or not the amount of progress he has made so far is acceptable. His argument was that the recovery process is harder than I think it is. My rebuttal was that he is being handed resources from all over the place to use towards his recovery. They've literally been laid out on a silver platter for him. He is the one who is deciding not to use them. After arguing about it for another 10 minutes or so, he finally said what he was thinking. "You chose to be with me. I'm sorry but it's the truth."
By Diary of a Porn Addicts Partner5 years ago in Humans
Partner of a Porn Addict 3 - Relapse
Dealing with relapses has got to be one of the most confusing situations that occurs during an addict’s recovery. One second I'm pissed at him, then the next I'm angry and blaming myself for everything that's going on. I start asking myself, "Why didn't I ask him if he'd read the next step in his SAA book?" or "Why didn't I tell him how proud I was of him this morning before he left for work?" I ask myself all of these things as if what I do even makes a difference. For the past month, he had steadily been improving, lasting between a week to two weeks before relapsing again. But this time he relapsed just after five days. I’m so disappointed and frustrated because I want to know that we are moving forward and not taking steps backward.
By Diary of a Porn Addicts Partner6 years ago in Filthy
Partner of a Porn Addict - 2
I am so torn up. My day started out wonderfully. I got up, headed to church, and got a good dose of exactly what I needed. Let me add that my boyfriend, his son, and I normally go to church every weekend. But the few weekends prior to today we'd missed it. Coincidentally, today's service was about sexual impurity. Which oddly enough has been the biggest struggle in my current relationship of 1 in a half years. I knew I was in for a heart-wrenching service but I felt so grateful that it came when it did.
By Diary of a Porn Addicts Partner6 years ago in Filthy