Julia Busshardt
Bio
23, and getting by in life with the magic of writing.
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Not Everyone You Love is Going to Leave You
I’m used to being abandoned. I’m used to being disappointed, let down, led on, and pushed to the side afterwards. At first, I was naive to it. I didn’t think people were intentionally trying to hurt me, but after awhile it started to feel like a casual joke. It was something that I just simply expected without much explanation. Why would anyone stick around and be there for me? First, it was the two father figures in my life — biological and adoptive. Maybe “father figure” is a bit lenient and generous to call the guys who were too selfish or cowardly to be there for me when their daughter needed them the most. Others were people who drifted into my life, embracing this grand entrance, and I thought that they were significant. As time progressed and disappointments turned into something regular, I stopped caring. I gave the people who abandoned me too many chances each time they came around. It’s like I never learned, because no matter what, I continued to see the best in people and believed in multiple chances. I had my heart broken and my soul burned. I felt like an idiot or a fool and I wanted to erase all of the precious time spent with those who took me for granted and walked away like it was the easiest thing in the world. Little did they know I had a huge heart, and I had so much love to give. Little did I know — they didn’t deserve any of that love. They didn’t deserve all my stories, all of my accomplishments, or getting to know the amazing, resilient person I was becoming. I was only resilient because of them and all the stupid letdowns they threw at me.
By Julia Busshardt6 years ago in Humans