Desireeeeee

In my life, I have noticed that desire is very prevalent, especially in being a junior in high school where everyone seems to be having sex. But desire is so odd to me. It can make you want and go for somebody that is totally bad for you and overlook the person that is hopelessly in love with you. Or, as in love you can be in high school, is love in high school really even love... well that's a topic for another post.

In my life, I saw one of my friends break up with her boyfriend who is trying everything to get her back. He's sending her paragraph after paragraph, making posts about her, and at this point is just begging. And as she's reading these paragraphs you can just tell that she doesn't care, she doesn't feel anything for him. But then she looks across the room after the real one she is feeling for, and he doesn't exactly see her that way. But yet she still wants to be with the pretty boy from across the room. Something similar has happened to me but I am in the position of the person that is begging for them to see how good I am for them. It is terrible being in that position because you just feel helpless and like a lost puppy. Nobody wants to feel as if they are begging somebody for attention or that they can't go on without them. But that's the type of reaction it brings out of you and you can't help it no matter how much you try to.

My question is, "Why is that?" why do we want what we can't have or doesn't want us? But isn't that how it always is? We want what we can't have because of the simple fact that we can't have it. Almost like we don't want to accept that some people aren't attainable for various reasons that have nothing to do with us at all. It almost goes back to our animal-like instincts that are down for the hunt. The chase and that if we can't get it the first time we will keep trying until we do get it. Now I run track and I love to play chase in a race it is just motivating for me. But for me chasing after somebody is no doubt romantic but somewhat a waste of my time.

Why I think that it is romantic but somewhat a waste of my time is because it is great to make the person feel wanted and special, of course, and if you mess up it shows them that you are absolutely serious about them and your relationship. But there is a difference between somebody that is playing hard to get and somebody that just isn't looking at you in that way. Once you realize that it's almost like that fact makes you want them so much more it's like you just can't leave them alone.

Don't give them that power and let them see that part of you if the person you want doesn't want you, boss up and make them wish they did. Go out there and get that new outfit, that new hairstyle. Show it off and be happy. Once you give them that power they have the means to use you and to cause you to be unhappy. It is 2k18. It is time to unapologetically happy. The best way to make somebody want you is to show them how great you can be without them. As the people say, "You have to love yourself before you can completely love somebody else."