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Falling in Love With the Teacher

Having Feelings From High School Into Adulthood

By Illy YeePublished 6 years ago 4 min read
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Since most of us are returning to high school or college classes, I thought what better way to get into the spirit than to express one of the more everlasting impressions high school has left on me. Keep in mind, I graduated high school back in 2014. My first year of high school was cliché and tragic from the start.

My mother decided to transfer me to the rival school of the elementary when I was going to start, and to say I was not happy is a complete understatement. I didn't know a soul and I really just wanted to go back. The first day was typical and the always fun get-to-know games (note the sarcasm) were not as fun as they used to be. The second class of the day was IRP, which is study hall for those who don't know. The teacher of my study hall was also my Algebra 1 teacher. He was also my neighbor for my first year of high school.

I don't want to use his name for obvious reasons, mainly because he is a married man. But for this story, I'll call him Mr. J. Mr. J was and probably still is a very sweet and caring man. And no I did not fall in love with him at first sight. I felt he was different than all the other teachers out there. For me, he honestly expressed himself concerned for the academic achievement and like he really did care about being a friend to you.

Now, I know very well that what I'm about to say is from the mind of a 15-year-old girl, but if that were the case then I should have gotten over him already. I fell hard. As the school year went on, there were sideway glances and catching each other staring. During spirit week, there was always Wacky Wednesday. If anyone knows about the Harry Potter monopoly game, there is the golden snitch piece. For some odd reason, I decided to tape that to my hand for the day.

During Algebra, while everyone was doing their work, he came up to me. Mr. J took the piece and said it reminded him of a coat hanger. it seems simple and not romantic at all, but the way he looked at me was different. After that day, I was hooked. I dreamed about him every night, and saw him every day at school. I didn't try to do anything or even try to get his attention. I mean, why would I try to get a married man?!?!

Come years of fighting these feelings and trying to get rid of them, graduation day came. Now senior year, I did manage to somehow convince someone I was worth dating and had a boyfriend. Mr. J was there at graduation with his two-year-old son. Yea, when I got the news he was expecting with his wife sophomore year literally caused me chest pain. But when the ceremony was over and everyone was saying goodbye, I went to go get my folder from the front office. I caught sight of him and he was looking at me, I was sure of it.

I looked back at him but decided to continue walking. How I wanted to turn around, run to him, and finally just steal a kiss from him and tell him everything. But I didn't. I got my folder and left with my family. My 21 birthday, I did something I probably shouldn't have. I visited him at the school and talked to him about anything. When it was time to leave, I had left a note explaining my feelings for him on his desk in front of his desk.

I don't know if he found it or if he knows it was me who left it since I didn't leave my name on it. Mr. J is married with three kids now, and I have my own son as well. Mr. J, if somehow you are reading this, I'm sorry, but I still love you. But for the others reading, don't be scared to tell someone how you feel face to face. Not knowing how he feels literally keeps me up at night. So go for it IN A RESPECTABLE WAY!!!

Life is too short to waste time on the what ifs and wanting to go back to change it.

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Illy Yee

Hello everyone, I am a mother of one and I am in college right now. I love Harry Potter and a huge 90's geek. I can't wait to open my own business but also write my own stories and maybe even get published with my ideas.

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