Friends or Enemy?

Have you ever been betrayed by your own best friends before? I have.

I’ve never really had close friends. In high school towards the end of my senior year, I completely lost my group of friends. I had no reason why I had lost them but at that time I was dating someone, and I don’t know if it was because of my ex-boyfriend or me. My boyfriend at the time didn’t go to my school, he was older than me. During school I was always texting him and I didn’t understand how my friends stopped talking to me, I felt like it was because they probably thought that I was to invested or whatever I don’t know. I graduated and left with no friends. My boyfriend at that time was my only friend.

Since high, I only stayed in touch with like 3 people and got close with 2 of them. A lot has changed in a year. I’ve found happiness again.

This time I found out that both of my friends are too protective of me and think that my new boyfriend is abusive to me. Think that I’m better off without him and that I should move back home. People are quick to judge my new relationship. Yeah, my boyfriend is bipolar and has a lot of issues, but I don’t care about that stuff, I can learn to deal with it, but people don’t seem to get that. There’s times where I don’t know how to handle a situation with him, but it takes patience really. Not everyone is perfect, everyone has their flaws, even I do. I know I’m not perfect and not that easy to handle either, but I don’t let that stop me from wanting someone that’s difficult to be with. My mom always told me not to judge a book by its cover. Though, I don’t have friends right now because of my new relationship doesn’t really bother me that much cause now I know that they weren’t really my friends. Sucks to say that I don’t really have anyone to talk besides my boyfriend. I can’t really talk to him about girl stuff or whatever. There’s some things that I’ll talk to about but not everything. Whenever I need to get something off my chest, I’ll talk to him about it but otherwise I won’t. I know communication is key in a relationship and ours kind of sucks cause we're that couple that has a hard time trusting people. The thing I love about my boyfriend is that he is very caring. I moved in with him like less than a month together. I know it’s a stupid thing to, but he just never wanted me to leave, he loves having me around to annoy me all the time, I do so much for him that he already knows that I care about him. He does a lot for me already, whenever I have a stressful day from work, he’s always there to talk to me.

I honestly don’t really care if I have friends or not cause it’s them they lose, that they lost me as a friend. I’m not going to be friends with people that don’t approve of my new relationship cause I’m not going to pick sides. It's childish to stop being friends with me because of a guy. Although I wouldn’t choose my boyfriend over my friends but if they are going to be like that, I guess it’s going to have to be that way from now on. Friends come and go. I’m okay with that.