Friendships

The first school you go to as a kid is usually where you meet your first group of friends, you have fun, scream, shout, make memories and you make a best friend, like I said, usually.

The next step, is going to a middle school. Hopefully, with the best friend(s) that you made at First school. You obviously meet new people there but you have your best friend(s) that you've had through your school life so far with you, so your ok, or so you think. What you don't think about, is, the new people that your best friend(s) is/are making friends with and before you know it your not so sure where you stand in their friendship rank anymore. Everything and everyone is changing right before your eyes. Unfortunately, there isn't much you can do about it, except, join in.

You, maybe just survived that transition to now be faced with another one, the move to high school. More new people but hopefully the friends from Middle school are still with you, for now. After a short period of time you start to feel a little insecure but change your image and attitude in order to still fit in with old and new friends. Start listening to new music, start doing new things, challenging things, naughty things and end up breaking a few rules.

Then the unthinkable happens, a life changing accident occurs which results in you being off school for a few months and you end up getting dropped back a year to catch up on work and prepare for the exams you should of been taking. Returning back to school you think you'll be ok, you'll still see friends on breaks and at lunch times but in reality you don't see them because they have other plans and places to be, even at night or weekends they don't have time to visit you and you can't make plans with them because they aren't at home, finally, there's nobody left. They've all moved on without you, even your best friend(s).

Another new image of you is created, as you try to make new friends in your new year but it's not so easy as they already have their circles and groups.

From then on, you have a guard up to stop letting people in until your ready to trust again. Then you make one friend, slowly you become best friends and your inseparable, do nearly everything together, go out, go shopping, concerts, watch ice hockey matches and finally let the guard down and it's fine, for a while, finding another person to share things with, then one day you realise it was a big mistake.

Out of the blue this person no longer wants anything to do with you, they've got somebody else and they tell you to do one but instead of talking to you about it face to face and giving you the chance to discuss with them how this is making you feel and to see if there is anyway to resolve this issue or see if there's anyway you can all move forward as friends, you get told in a text message.

So the only thing your left with is questions, What is wrong with you? Why does this keep happening to you? What have you done wrong? but the answer is simple.. nothing!

Basically, when you start living your life, your way and friends, people realise they can't control you anymore, they then make you feel like it's your fault that they left, just so they don't have to feel guilty about it.

Their loss in the end...