Genuine Souls

Growing up, no one explains the sickening knots you feel when you have your first "fake friend" moment. You don't get sat down at a kitchen table chair and listen to another growing experience lecture from your parents. When it comes down to the "who is fake, who is real" conversation, you are all on your lonesome with that one. I remember being very confused, rather than upset that someone had said something awful about me behind my back. What stumped me on the situation, if you must know, is the fact that this wasn't just some random person talking out there ass, no. It was my best friend. The moment those foul words spoken of me came back around and hit me like a boomerang, I felt unsecured. Generally a person asks why, so here it is... I have no freaking clue other than the fact that I shared all my secrets with this person and I couldn't even trust them when my back was turned. My reaction was so different than you would expect. Most ignorant young children want to yell and fight but for what? I was clueless on how to react. What I didn't want was to believe that the only person I trusted was actually my worst enemy. Not really one for confrontation either. It made me nervous and sick to my stomach to keep thinking about it, so I brushed it off my shoulders and moved on. Later on in life you realize that is 100 percent the wrong move and the right one (I know its confusing, getting there). I was a smart kid, knew I needed to pick and choose which battles were worth fighting and let me tell you if it has anything to do with people talking behind your back, then you should never put a single ounce of effort into fighting that. People will always gab of you, whether its good or bad. It is not, I repeat, NOT your job to stop people from saying whatever the hell they want. The only thing you do is stay genuine to yourself and keep spreading the real love around. That is the right side, now for the wrong... brushing off the fact that my best friend just talked major BS about me to everyone was actually clearing this major pathway for her to just do it again and after enough time it became a viscous cycle. I have always tried to ignore the nasty, untruthful things people say because usually what's pouring out of their wretched mouths is the most ignorant crap I have ever heard in my life. You have to swallow your pride and realize light will shine on the truth one way or another. Nevertheless, I set myself up to be taken advantage of and it's pretty scary that over the years I've developed selective hearing for when people are talking BS about myself or others. Granted, it does help me feel less concerned and I don't get phased by it, but it's still happening and by people that you thought you could trust for ten plus years. You can either surround yourself with real or fake and I chose real. I got wise enough to catch on to what I was doing to myself by allowing this person be in my life. Snip, Snip. I cut out rotten, manipulative, lying and disrespectful individuals from my life. It's as easy as pie now that I am an adult. You realize you have no time to worry about all those unnecessary things, and they won't be a distraction if you just get rid of it all. Stay true to yourself, be a genuinely good person always because those are the best types of people with the purest souls and this world would die without the small percentage of you left. Not going to lie, I'm the most genuine person I have ever met and to me that is extremely sad. You can be the most genuine human on the planet and it will not come back around in your favor. Your bright shining genuine heart will make a difference, I promise you that. Don't let anyone take that away from you. There are genuine souls left in this world and they are rare, offering a secure hand and warm comfort no one is willing to trust anymore. Let's pray they stay pure.