Her

She's my best friend, I knew I loved her the moment we met, I saw my future in her eyes, and her smile completed me, but she's not the one, because she doesn't feel the same way about me.

When I first met her, I was dating one of her friends, my relationship with her friend wasn't too great. He was with me because he was lonely, and I was with him because I needed an emotional connection. We both weren't offering what we wanted so the relationship was set up for failure since day one. It eventually ended, but that's when my feelings for her got stronger.

I had messaged her on Facebook a few times, nothing to write home about, it was just small talk. Honestly I didn't really think things would come of it, so we sorta just stopped contacting each other. When me and her friend had started dating she ended up coming back into my life, and me and her just clicked since then.

My boyfriend at the time was like hey you wanna meet my friend, and that's what we did, showed up at the park. The instant I saw her I had known I would fall so deeply in love with her that it would hurt. The moment she looked up from her phone and said hey, with her silly little wave she does, was the moment I knew.

She instantly went for her lip piercing, and started to fiddle with it. I always know how she's feeling just by the way she touches it. She looked me in the eyes and knocked something lose inside of me, and I saw my future right there sitting on a swing nervously playing with her lip ring. Her smile made me smile and it touched my heart, time froze and she was glowing.

I didn't think I would ever feel the way I do about her until I saw her eyes in person. I saw all the pain and suffering she had been through, and I saw how she had been effected by her past. I just knew her in that moment, and I wanted to give her everything she never had.

She was the first person I've ever wanted an emotional connection with, and our stories and situations are similar, but she's my best friend now, and she's happy with somebody else.

Every day I beat myself up over it, and she knows how I feel about her, but she still sticks around, and that just makes me love her even more. I'm proud of her for how far she's come in the time I've known her, and how far she will go in the future. I'm proud to be her best friend, even with the feelings I have for her because, without her in my life I'm just half of a person.

She's not the one for me because I wanna grow old with her, and she doesn't want the same, but because I love her so deeply I'm okay with that, maybe one day she'll catch feelings for me, but she's better off being my best friend because not everyone a person loves is meant to be with them.

So best friend strap in for the ride, because we've got life to conquer, and each other to support.