His Wife Did Not Find Out About Me

My phone rang, and I did not recognize the number. I did a quick google search, but it did not show me where the call came from.

It was him! I knew it was him! My vibe rose instantly, I shrieked, I smiled, I held the phone to my chest.

It rang again, I sighed, I love him, I love him for not leaving me. My voice still a full octave higher than normal and I had to calm myself, breathe deep.

"Hello."

Him: Hey

Me: Hi, I knew it was you.

Him: Hey, I'm sorry for leaving. I've missed you so much, I was afraid of calling. How are you?

Me: I'm okay, are you okay?

Him: Yeah, I'm okay, just missing you. Listen, can we meet? We need to talk.

Me: Yeah, I'll be there.

It was past 10 by the time I left, I was skipping into my car. The drive was normal, traffic, and I told myself, I was just going to clear the air. I needed closure. We were going to find peace and let go of each other the right way.

I walk up to the sliding doors staring at my phone, texting him about where he wanted to meet. I was interrupted by the sound of the elevator doors opening, and wow! My jaw dropped.

My illusion that we were just going to say goodbye shattered. Oh man, I missed him. He had lost weight, cleaned shaved. Just gorgeous. He motions me go get in the elevator and I follow.

I am the happiest girl in that moment, I'm looking at his perfect form and he comes at me and kisses me so passionately, just picked me up and held me against the wall. Yes, he is seductive that way.

When the doors open he goes back into his playful self, motions me to walk out. He has not said anything yet.

We walk into the room and I settle on top of a writing desk and say, "I'm listening".

Him: Yes, I am married, and yes she found out. She went through my phone and found some pictures I had taken of you sleeping.

Me: What did you say?

Him: I had to come clean, I mean, what did you expect me to say?

Me: I'm so embarrassed, I never let you take pictures.

He reached to kiss me, and whispered, "I'm sorry" in between kisses.

I felt his breath on me and I kissed him back. I wrapped my hands around his neck and I could feel he was genuinely sorry.

Me: So, what happens now?

Him: I, just want to be with you, just you, he whimpered.

Me: I believed him and I kissed him, I wrapped my legs around his hips and I believed in him,

He kissed me back, I was so ready for him.

I know what I told myself in the car, but that's because I had already said yes to him. Somehow I knew it.

How could he be so careless? I heard myself in a frustrated voice inside my head. Not him, he is meticulous, everything in its proper place. Did he let her find out?

Me: I've really needed you, you know.

Him: I know baby, I'm sorry.

Me: How did this happen? Why were you not careful?

Him: I was missing you and had been watching our video in the morning when I was you know, supposed to be showering and she came in and caught me.

Me: Video? Babe, we did not take a video.

Him: Ah, I took a short video of you sucking on me, it was short, just like 10 seconds

Me: Enough to get you in trouble. How could you?

He does this thing... ugh!! So amazing, cuddles my head in his chest and kisses my hair, saves me every time.

Him: I'm sorry, baby. How can I make it up to you?

I think to myself, has he said the same thing to her? What did he do or say to get her back? This poor man has spent the last four months trying to make it up to her, and he is here.

There was nothing he could do to save her from the pain. Nothing in all of his strength that could re build her. She let him go. It feels like she let him go. It feels like he is here for the taking.

He is here because I can save him.

I know it was not me in the video.

His wife did does not know who I am.

She found out he was cheating on her, I just found out he was cheating on me.

My head is still tucked in his chest, he doesn't need any more grief. I am his lover, I am who he seeks to heal. It is me that comforts him, and I am suddenly Ok with that.