Back in October I went through a breakup with someone I thought for sure would ALWAYS have my back, but in the long run of things, it was just another Karmic lesson.
I had a rough time with this, the fact that he was just so okay with walking away and not showing an ounce of any kind of feelings when it came to it; after nine months of being with him, with all my time and effort, and meeting his family... he simply walked away. He wanted to continue to be friends, but I “harshly” declined because, to me, you cannot be friends with someone that you have crossed so many lines with.
I've been searching myself and been more aware of so much since he left, and words were exchanged, but though I feel bad for the things I said and how I said them, I had burned the bridge so badly that to me there was never gonna be repair. Then I realized something in the search within myself on the many days and nights that I’d thought about him and the situation, and it’s so simple to me now.
It should never matter how bad a bridge is burned... if they truly care for you and always had, no matter what it is, and if they really want you, they WILL rebuild that bridge and get to you. If someone cares and loves you, they will find any way to get to you and vice versa. If the love was ever really real, and they truly see your worth and what you’ve dealt with... trust me when I tell you... they will come back to you.
He never rebuilt that bridge, though I did once for him. I swore to myself that no matter how much I loved him or cared, I couldn’t do it a second time because I wasn’t even sure he would do it for me... and he proved me right. After I pretty much begged for what I knew I deserved... he stood and stated I was right and he was stupid... and although I was hopeful... my hope diminished shortly after.
Don’t build that bridge if you had already kept running after them to save what you held so precious in your heart when they never reciprocated. Love you and heal you because what is meant for you will be.
Don’t lose sleep over someone who would stay up and party all night without saying a word, don’t cry over someone who is laughing it up while he knows you’re upset, and never ever beat yourself up over someone who is beating themselves up with drugs who is really not giving a shit about the real priorities they had promised you.
You weren’t handed the situation if you were not able to handle it and nothing in life is coincidence. The hurt I felt fueled me into loving me more and focusing on what makes me happy and my passions. And it is beyond true when they state that when someone shows you their true colors... please don’t waste your time in repainting how you see them... it’ll only wash off after so long.
Be strong and courageous; you aren’t alone in anything you do or feel or see. If you know you and know your worth, settle for nothing and gain all your worthy of.
It’s now February...
I have a new job title and I am glowing... stop letting them dim your light... burn that bridge and see if they come and if they don’t... well, keep going and don’t stop.
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"Shores of Peacefulness: A Day of Rapture at the Ocean side"
The sun rose into the great beyond, projecting a brilliant gleam across the serene waters of the sea. Seagulls took off above, their cries reverberating through the pungent air as the delicate beat of the waves lapped against the sandy shore. It was an ideal day at the ocean side, and for Emily and her family, it guaranteed vast experiences and loved recollections. As they showed up at the ocean side, Emily's heart expanded with energy. She could scarcely hold on to feel the warm sand between her toes and the cool sea breeze all over. With a screech of pleasure, she ran towards the water, her giggling dragging along her like a strip in the breeze. The ocean side was buzzing with movement, as families and companions accumulated to partake in the daylight and the ocean. Youngsters constructed transcending sandcastles, their minds roaming free as they etched turrets and channels with their small hands. Couples walked connected at the hip along the coastline, lost in murmured discussions and sneaked kisses. Also, surfers rode the peaking waves, their chuckling blending with the thunder of the sea. For Emily, the ocean side was a jungle gym of vast potential outcomes. She went through the early daytime sprinkling in the waves, feeling the pungent shower on her skin as she moved in the midst of the surf. She gathered shells along the shore, wondering about their mind boggling shapes and lively varieties. Furthermore, she covered her feet in the warm sand, feeling the earth underneath her toes as she delighted in the basic delight of being alive. In any case, the genuine wizardry of the ocean side woke up in the early evening, as the sun plunged low overhead and the world was washed in a delicate, brilliant light. Emily's family assembled around a popping huge fire, their countenances enlightened by the gleaming flares as they simmered marshmallows and shared stories underneath the stars. As the fire snapped and popped, Emily felt a feeling of harmony wash over her — a sensation of having a place and happiness that she knew must be found at the ocean side. Here, in the midst of the excellence of nature and the glow of friends and family, she felt really alive, her heart spilling over with appreciation for the basic joys of life. As the night wore on and the stars sparkled above, Emily and her family clustered together, enveloped by covers and loaded up with the glow of the fire. They giggled and sang, their voices ascending into the night sky like a chorale of heavenly messengers as they praised the magnificence of the ocean side and the delight of being together. Also, as the fire consumed low and the last coals blurred into the haziness, Emily realize that she would convey the sorcery of this day with her until the end of time. For in the core of the ocean side, in the midst of the sand and the ocean and the stars, she had tracked down a piece of herself — a piece that would continuously have a place with the sea, and to the vast undertakings that looked for her on its shores. As the night extended, the ocean side took on an otherworldly quality, the twilight moving on the waves like a gleaming cover of silver. Emily and her family waited by the fire, sharing stories and chuckling long into the evening. The delicate sound of the sea filled in as a mitigating setting to their discussions, its musical rhythm calming them into a condition of quiet happiness. As they at long last advanced back to their ocean side house, Emily felt a feeling of significant appreciation wash over her. The day at the ocean side had been all that she had expected and the sky is the limit from there — a day loaded up with giggling, love, and remarkable minutes imparted to individuals she treasured most. As she floated off to rest that evening, the waves reverberating in her ears, Emily realize that she would convey the memory of this day with her generally. For in the excellence of the ocean side and the glow of her family's affection, she had found where her heart could really find a sense of contentment — where each second was loaded up with wizardry, and consistently was a gift to be enjoyed.
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