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I Love His Girl

I had you in my arm's reach.

I had you in my arm's reach, but now I find you in someone's arms. I tried to move on, but every second you're on my mind. I try to throw myself into my work, but then I remember that I work to make your dreams come true. And I'm scared to sleep since I know that I can't run from you in my dreams. Cuz I don't know about you, but when I said those three words, I meant each word. They say third time is the charm, but what if my third chance never comes

What if I was never supposed to let you go? What if, in this game, it's two strikes and you're out? I know I don't express myself often, but just because I don't share my emotions doesn't mean I don't feel them, like a dagger through the heart. Things might not be the same, but somehow the feelings still remain. You were scared of something going wrong and you getting hurt. But now, since you put your shoes on, I've been fighting back tears. I should never have let you go either time. 

Because then I would have made sure that we both would be happier then you, getting a lifetime supply of gummy worms. But now only one of us is happy, and I'm just thinking what if? as I let the dam fall crack by crack. My feelings might never change but damn, did our friendship change. Now it just feels like the most important person to me has no time for the guy she used to call her prince. I was supposed to be the one that was your protector, the one that showed you love wasn't a waste, and the one that actually never walked away. But I guess I'll just fake a smile and hide a tear when you tell me how happy you are. It hurts so much when you know the person you love loves someone else and they don't know how much they mean to you. I had the best prize just a pin away, but now I'm torn between hoping you break up and hoping god gives me that third chance, or sadly, walking out cuz I don't know how much longer I can fake this smile. But at the end of the day, I'll always love you until my heart stops beating.

Any pain you have, I'd rather have so you don't have that pain anymore. I need you, good and bad. I don't know what the future holds, but I need you in it. Why do you have to be so goddamn adorable? I promise I'll be strong when you're weak and I'll lift you up when you fall. I didn't fall in love with you for looks, I fell in love with YOU. You deserve the world. Unfortunately, I can't give you that, but I can give you the next best thing. When I first met you, I didn't know I would like you like this, but now I'm scared to lose you. 

When I look at you, I see everything I ever wanted and, more importantly, what I realize I need. I can't explain how you make me feel, cuz I love you more than words can ever express...I had you in my past, I have you in my present, but I need you in my future. When I look at you I see everything I ever wanted and, more importantly, what I realized I needed. When I see you smile, I just can't help but fall in love. You mean the world to me and I love you.

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