I Love You, but I'm Not in Love

I saw her from afar and thought - WOW! she's beautiful!

He said hello, and I said hey. the exchange of greetings become more common and less formal. At first I didn't think anything of it, I mean who would want to get to know someone like me

She didn't seem to keen at first, I just wanted to get to know her more "Go for a drink with me?" God I hope she says yes please let her say yes.

We hung out, played some pool and talked all night, he wouldn't stop starring at me. Was there something on my face??

She was so cute and funny, I couldn't look away. I didn't want to.

His blue eyes... So intense.

I drove her home that night and she said ''See ya later!''

We hung out more and more, I kept thinking to myself, she's amazing! I think I'm ready now.

I didn't trust him at first, be he started to grow on me. I've never had that happen before. Why him?

Why her?

Trust and affection can easily be giving, but then one wrong move, one wrong word, and it can all be shattered into a million little pieces.

I tried to pick up all the pieces, but some were to broken to even try to put back together and others, lost and never found.

"I don't want to have to hide my feelings from you. I wish I could kiss you like they do in the movies. Hold you through out the night. Make you feel more passion then you could dream of. I crave you. I want you. " is what i wanted to tell her.

He said he wanted me... But I just couldn't bring myself to believe him.

My craving was so strong but she pushed me away. Why? Why would you want to hurt me.

I did... No. I DO love him. I need to wake up and smell the coffee. Time to tell him.

Once you've been hurt, its hard to differentiate LOVE and LUST. I craved for her, got attached. I can't do that again. I still want her around, I want to be able to touch her, feel her lips all over my body and make her moan... But I don't her to get attached. We can't risk that again, it's what's best for both of us.

I love him.

I love her.

I am just not in love with her.

Three words that can make your heart explode, make you feel so happy but, scared at the same time. I don't I ever want to hear those words again.

It's not that simple anymore.

Fairytale loves, It takes us and gives us an illusion of what falling in love is like... We all want those "Relationship goals." But today, it's far more complicated. Prince charming found the glass slipper, but instead of finding Cinderella, he keeps think of why she ran away, wondering if he screwed up and leaving Cinderella waiting by the window for him to find her... even though he might never come.