I'm Sorry I Never Told You

I’m sorry I never told you…

How much I loved your smile. How it made me melt every time I saw it. Every time you smiled at me. How seeing your face was the best part of my day. How I never could have gotten tired of seeing your amazing smile. How you were right when you told me on our first date that your smile was your best physical feature.

How cool I thought your earring was. How beautiful your hair was. How much I really liked it. How much I loved your laugh. How cool and unique I thought you were. How you are one of the most interesting human beings that I’ve ever met.

How I loved every moment I spent with you and getting to know you. I lost track of time when I was with you. That’s a rare thing for me. I’m sorry that we didn’t spent more time together.

I’m sorry for all the stupid, petty things I complained about.

I’m sorry if you ever felt like I held back with you or I wasn’t all in. I was just trying to protect myself because you had me from the moment you first smiled at me.

I’m sorry I never told you enough how much I cared about you. How much I liked you.

I’m sorry for falling as hard as I did for you. I didn’t mean to.

I’m sorry for not spending more time with you.

I’m sorry for all the things that I did wrong.

I’m sorry for it taking me so long to open up to you. I’m sorry if I ever confused you.

I’m sorry I never told you how beautiful I thought you were. How smart I thought you were. How incredible I thought you were.

I’m sorry I didn’t tell you how much I appreciated and loved all the little things you would do.

I’m sorry I never expressed how grateful and happy I was. How thankful I was to have met you and had you in my life. Even if it was brief.

I guess it’s true you really don’t really appreciate someone until they’re gone.

I’m sorry that we didn’t work out. I’m sorry that I couldn’t be the person that you wanted.

I’m sorry that I wasn’t the right one for you.

I’m sorry that I still think of you. I’m sorry that I couldn’t just forget about you. That I am still sorting out my feelings.

I guess that is how you know I really cared and felt something. Because I have a lot to say. I only write about things and people that I care about or that meant something to me.

It might not have been super serious, but it takes time for me to process everything. At least the things that matter.

I’m sorry because these are the things I regret.

These are the things that if I could have another chance that I would do.

I’m sorry I never told you everything that I wanted to, everything that I meant to.

But, I’m not sorry that I met you. I’m not sorry that you made a positive impact on my life.

I’m not sorry that you helped me feel something again. It had been so long. I’m not sorry that you were able to be the person that I needed when I needed someone. I’m not sorry that I got a good friend out of it.

I’m not sorry about what we had and the time that we spent. I’m not sorry for the memories that we made and the laughs that we shared.

While I might be sorry about some things, I don’t regret at all what we had. I’d do it all over again, just better. Because you deserve the best. Never forget that.