"Is This Love?"

“Is this love?” I thought as he asked me to marry him.

I exclaimed, “What, I don’t know what to say!”

“Just say yes,” He demanded.

“Meow!” My cat interrupted.

“I can’t decide now,” I replied, “give me time.”

He sighed, “Ok, I’ll give you time.”

He stood up and opened my door and left. I wondered where he was going considering the fact that he lives with me. I kept replaying and replaying the moment in my head, it was perfect.

It was a candle lit dinner that he had prepared for us. There was a candle in the middle of the table. As the candle melted, something became visible. It was something circular and it shimmered in the candle light. He blew it out and reached his hand into the candle and pulled out a ring.

I gasped in shock and questioned, “Jacques, this can’t be real.”

He replied with, “Nick, from the day I saw you I knew you we were right for each other.”

I was still in shock; I didn’t know what to say.

He said, “Nick, will you...”

“Ring!” “Ring!”

I rushed over to the phone and answered it.

“Mr. Connor, this is a nurse calling from the regional hospital.”

I asked, “What happened, is everything alright?”

She apologized and said, “There has been an accident and one of the people involved was your boyfriend.”

“I’ll be there right away,” I exclaimed.

I rushed to my car and got in and started driving like a maniac, almost getting in an accident myself. I walked into the hospital and moved as fast as I could to his room, I was pretty much running.

There he was, tubes coming out of his nose. I walked into the room and sat beside him and held his almost lifeless hand. His fingers were still warm. The doctor walked in.

The doctor said, “He has minor head injuries but, he has a piece of glass in his arm and from what the MRI says, it went through the ulnar nerve.”

“So he’s going to need surgery to take the piece of glass out and repair the nerve and hope for the best but,” I said, “We also need to make sure the arm is stable and that it has enough strength to move it.”

“Yes, how did you know?” He questioned.

I replied with, “I’m a medical school student.”

“Surgery will be many hours so, you’ll need to wait here,” He said

A nurse walked in and said, “We will be preparing him for surgery now.”

I got up to leave and I looked at him and he seemed almost lifeless.

Hours upon hours I waited until the doctor came out and said, “You may see him now.”

I walked back into his room and sat down beside him and he opened his eyes and saw me. I smiled and reached out and grabbed his hand.

I smiled and said, “Yes, I will marry you!”.

He gripped my hand and mouthed the words, “I love you.”

“I love you too,” I said.

He started seizing, I held his head up and yelled for the nurses to come in. They ran in and yelled, “Page neuro now!”

They directed me out of the room and assured me, “We are going into surgery now, we’ll keep you updated,”

I sat down in the waiting room, tears rushing down my face. I thought about our entire relationship up until now. I can still remember him saying, “I’m not gay” “I’m not gay.”

“Yeah that’s true,” I thought sarcastically.

He always said he wasn’t gay and now we're getting married. The doctor walked out, still wearing his scrub cap.

“I’m so sorry, we did everything we could,” he said.

“You did everything you could, you should have done a CT for any head injuries whether they’re minor or not!”

“I’m so sorry, we didn’t think about it,” He said and then quickly walked away.

I sat back down and grabbed my phone and called each person who knew him one by one, crying harder and harder through each call.

“I should have just said yes,” I yelled at myself, “He’s gone, he’s actually gone!”

Everyone walked in at the same time to comfort me, I cried, they cried. We didn’t know what to do.

“He’s gone,” I thought, “He’s gone forever.”