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March 6, 2017 - April 15, 2017; Note at the End

March 06, 2017

So, I have been getting a lot of movies. I still have a lot more to get. But first I need to get DVD-RW from best buy. It's a 30 pack. I think I have 30 movies. But the only problem is I don't have money. The thing is about $25 dollars.

Anyway, I am being very patient for my boyfriend to move here to Cruces. I can't wait till he does because then I will be taking him places, make him smile, etc.

I haven't talked to a friend because I have been a little mad at them.

Princess is still crazy. And hyper a lot. But I love him.

I am now on week 4 of my class and it is easy for me, which I am grateful for. Now I have to wait for my money from my FAFSA to come in. So I can get ink for my printer, paper, etc.

Anyway, Have A Nice Day/Night.

April 1, 2017

Hey, everyone.

So what's been happening in my life?

I have been very happy with my boyfriend.

School is going awesome. I am going to start my next class on the 3rd.

I am also going to get new classes on the 6th.

That's all for right now.

Thanks,

April 15, 2017

So we are moving houses. I like it.

For the past few days, I have had a feeling something is gonna happen to me. I was right. My boyfriend maybe falling in love with his friend.

Why can't I get a boyfriend or girlfriend and actually date them for a while? Why can't I get a happy time? I feel like I am meant to be alone forever. I should get it through my mind that no one will ever love me.

I just want someone to hold, to kiss, to show my love to them, etc. But no life has to fuck with me.

I need to get a punching bag to help get all my anger and sadness out.

(screams in frustration)

Today Oct 8, 2018

Just so you know, yes I know everything is out of order. But I did it for a reason. So that if someone is going through something even a little bit as I did, they know they aren’t alone. As well as typing everything my papers were not in order. That really annoyed me. I am usually organized even if it is a little and only I am the only one who can understand my system. I am just weird like that. Like for example, I can drink hot cocoa during summer and eat ice cream when it is freezing cold outside. Or if my sleeping schedule if messed up, I can stay up for a long time then pass out at a good time and wake up at the right time then my schedule is fixed. I am probably boring you with what I type. But doing a journal on here does help me get things off my chest. I may not be doing one every day. And the reason is, I write letters to my love of what I am feeling or anything to do with him. Then when the notebook is full, I give it to him. I don’t mind if he doesn’t read them. I am okay with that. I let my actions of love show him how I feel about him. Which is nothing but good feelings, I hope that whoever reads these are having a good day. If not, then I am sorry and just know it will get better.

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