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A lot can happen in a year.

By Sophia RosadoPublished 5 years ago 4 min read
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When I was a young girl, I remember sitting on my bedroom floor, on my knees, next to my open window. I was praying to God and I remember thinking if my windows open then my prayer would travel faster to God's ears. I was praying a very serious prayer for such a young girl—I was praying about who my future husband would be.

As I grew up and experienced life, my interest in boys and dating grew, almost obsessively. I remember being in middle school and high school and wanting a boyfriend so bad, and when I had one, he was all that was on my mind. It was almost an addiction, but an addiction I never had before. I wanted to sample and taste what that love was like that you'd see in movies or TV shows. I wanted that happiness, I wanted to be chased, I wanted to be wanted.

I dated a lot, risked a lot of my heart to find love. Some situations I avoided unscathed, others have left severe scars and memories I will never escape from. My obsession to find love and for love to find me has left me abandoned in hotel rooms, it's left me with bruises around my neck, and it's left me crying in my bedroom sheets.

But it all changed in July.

July 15th, 2018, I found God. I learned of His grace and undying love over me and my life. How He was with me throughout my whole life excursion in finding my husband. He revealed to me that no man could give me the happiness or joy that my spirit was thirsting for. Only God can give me that.

When I realized this truth, and accepted it, my spirit eased. I felt I could rest, I felt at peace. But I was still a woman who desired to be married, but now that I had God, I took a big step and entrusted God with my desire of finding my husband. I relinquished control and let God take the reins of my love life. I told God the things I liked in terms of looks, character traits, hobbies, etc. One thing I knew I needed was a man who could make me laugh. I think that was at the top of my list.

In the meantime, though, I volunteered at church and focused on building my relationship with Jesus. My concentration was no longer on men and dating but it was on my relationship with Jesus.

Days turned to weeks.

Weeks turned to months.

I was happy and healed. I was growing in church, building relationships with other Godly women, and sharing God's goodness... and it was during those moments of not looking, I found Isaac.

This silly, smiley, affectionate guy who would catch my attention and ultimately my heart. He was unlike anyone I had met. He was kind, trustworthy, vulnerable, a family-oriented guy, and a God follower. It didn't take me long to fall for him.

We started dating and it all just fell into place. It felt right. I felt that same sense of peace when I found God. But a part of me had doubts. I was scared of getting my hopes up and getting hurt again.

Until one night, we were discussing what our names meant. And I learned how his meant "to laugh" or "laughter" and I can't explain it but, all of a sudden, my doubts disappeared. I knew he was my literal prayer personified.

And on July 7th, 2019, he proposed.

A whole year later, almost to the day, after I entrusted God with him. Isn't that amazing? I went years through heartbreak and hopelessness because I was trying to do it all on my own, thinking I knew what I wanted and where to find it and after finding God, I found my happily ever after and got engaged to him in the span of one year.

One year.

One July to the next.

A lot happened in just one year. It makes me think if God can do this much in one year, just by me trusting in Him, imagine what He can do with a lifetime.

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Sophia Rosado

Hey! My name is Sophia.

I don't have anything fancy to say other than I love Jesus, food, and writing. Hope you enjoy your stay!

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