Letters to Lia...

You know, when I first met you, I knew you were going to be a part of me forever.

I didn’t exactly know what role you would have...or what position you would play in my world, but I knew for sure that you were here to stay. My feelings didn't exactly fulfill the “Love at first sight” cliché at first but...I’ll just make up my own.

“Life” at first sight.

Simply meaning...that the second I saw you, you were already a part of me. For life. No matter what. Which did nothing but make me more and more intrigued by you. Nobody in my 21 years of life has been able to captivate me the way you have; leave me completely speechless...under a spell. This was a feeling that I just couldn’t shake. It became my own personal brand of the most potent drug in the world...

Love...

Instantly, I was hooked. With that, I wanted MORE. This high was glorious but also extremely terrifying. I never experienced such strong feelings like this before. I was scared that I was going to mess it up and you would be gone forever. Having a taste of what that would have looked like now has left a scar in my heart that will never go away. It will be a constant reminder of how I NEVER want to experience that feeling of “loss” ever again, which made me want to change, made me want to do more to make you happy...and I did just that. I fell deeper and deeper in love, yet it was the simple things that made me fall for you—the sound of your voice, and the way it changed only when you saw me. The way you said my name and every color in the world illuminated. To the light in your eyes...and the way it can light up even the darkest of rooms. The motion of your breathing...and how it would slow down with every embrace. To the absolute fire that erupted in me the second your lips met mine. I can go on and on, writing novel after novel about the way you smelled on our first date...creating stories of everything you have ever told me. Now, you would disagree due to my “forgetful” nature, but hey, I’m a writer. Writers are always forgetful...

I oftentimes don’t remember your favorite brand of perfume...or your favorite song to hum to, but I can never forget how to make you laugh. I can remember the EXACT words to say to make you feel better when you are sad. I’ll never forget how you like me to kiss you...hold you...or how you want me to text you “I Love You” every night, even though we JUST hung up the phone. I have a hard time remembering minuscule things simply because I am oftentimes too busy remembering things far more important and influential.

Like you...

And I know...I know...I am NOT by ANY means an easy person to deal with. My fuse is short. VERY. Short. I don’t always listen to reason. I am VERY stubborn. My temper flares and I oftentimes say things I don't mean...leaving me regretting every single syllable that came out of my mouth. But...I am a work in progress. I have come a VERY long way & I am still learning. Me being an avid bookworm...I have yet to find a piece titled “How to Bring Dyv3rse Back When Her Feelings & Insecurities Come Out to Play?”

That story is still being written, so I just have to continue to work on me and see where we go.

So even though I can be a handful, I know that I can do one thing right, and that is love you—a deep, emotional, with everything in me type of love. I can be whatever you want me to be. I can give you every single part of me if that's what its going to take to make you smile. I can show you that whatever “love” you felt or had before wasn’t love at all simply because MY love is different. MY love is rare. MY love can be something not even the most talented of movie directors and play-writers can create.

With all that...I cant promise the future & now I can't even do much, but I can for sure do this.

I can promise you...me...

24/7...365 days a year...my love, I promise you me. Love, protection, family, future, heart, and soul.

For what it's worth, that can be something you can hold on to no matter what...forever.

- Dyv3rse

#HER