Losing Someone I Never Imagined I Would

This is a brief story I have been wanting to get off my chest for weeks now. This is my story of losing someone I never imagined I would and of moving on with my life now that this person is gone.

Growing up all I wanted was to grow up and get to a point in life where I have a good significant other, a roof over my head, and feel that I was wanted, needed, appreciated, and loved.

At the age of 19, I found all the things I spent my life dreaming about finding. He was perfect in my eyes, he could do no wrong. We began dating a month after we met because we felt that we had such a strong connection, how could we not give it a shot?

Things should have been great, right?

At first, they were. He was everything I thought I wanted and then some. He made me feel special and treated in a way I had never been treated before. After a year of being together and things going great, we started arguing more frequently, it was never more then a few words exchanged and the usual, "I am sorry for what I said". As time passed and we reached the two years together mark things got worse. He stayed busy as he worked night shift so that I could go to school during the day. We hardly ever saw each other and that was tough because we lived together.

July 10th, 2018 was one of the worst days of my young adult life. I lost the one person whom I did not want to lose. We split up per his suggestion, I tried fighting to save our relationship and got called abusive and neglectful for it. He was very wrong, he was the abusive and neglectful one and I was the soft spoken one who never had a problem with anything he did.

In the weeks since our split, I have realized how much better of a person I have become. I am stronger now, more courageous, more enlightened as to what my future holds, more enlightened as to what I want for my future and the relationships I may be a part of.

Losing him is something that has been difficult and will continue to be difficult but with each passing day I get a little bit stronger. When you lose someone you care about so much, it changes you as a person, either for better or worse. I plan to keep changing for the better.

I am going to end this with a quote from one of my favorite authors,

"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind" - Dr. Seuss