Losing What Held Me Together

Throughout high school, we meet the people we truly get along with and can relate to in a huge way and we have many ways of meeting them. I met my high school best friend in two different ways. The first was that we were both on the same power-lifting team and in close weight classes, so we trained together a lot and got to know each other quick. Then we met again outside of the team soon after when I started to date her ex. Goes to show you that you can really meet your best friend anywhere.

We were inseparable, anywhere I was, she was. No matter what we were together. I even took her on my senior trip to Disney World. We were always together. Even when I started college two hours away, we still hung out anytime I was home and never spent more than two weeks away from each other. Then we both got accepted into a private college and were going to be roommates.

So as you can see, we were pretty much ready to show this college what best friends really were. Then everything changed. One day while we were hanging out, she told me that she was going to live with her grandma across state so that she could help her out and get a job so that when we moved to college she had money. I was sad, but I supported her. I even went and visited her for a week.

Then after a few months there she met a guy. She liked him. I was happy for her and all, but it ended up coming out bad. She got pregnant... When she told me, I laughed because I thought it was a joke. It was not and she told me that she was trying to have a kid. It took me about a week before I finally asked her, "Why were you trying to have a kid when you knew that in two months we were suppose to be going off to college together?" Her only response was, "I didn't want to go."

It broke my heart to see those words pop up onto my phone. I still remember where I was when I found out. I was sitting in my mom's living room watching TV and all I could do was cry. The second I saw that she didn't want to go off to college with me anymore just broke me. I sat at home and cried for hours. I was suppose to go out with another friend and even cancelled that because of how upset I was. She just threw away her dream of college and everything just so that she could date a guy that eventually left her anyway.

At one point, my mom asked me if I even wanted to go away to college now. I thought about it really hard. Did I really want to move out of state to a place that I didn't know anyone and I would be so far away? After really thinking about it, I decided that I would still follow my dreams and leave my loving state and go on my own.

I have not talked to her since the day she told me she was pregnant. Yes, she has tried to talk to me, but I did not have the urge to talk to her. Is that a little selfish? Yes, but we spent months planning a great college life together and she threw it all away. I have never been so betrayed in my life.

There isn't a day that goes by that I do not think about what would have happened if she just stuck to her guns and went off to college with me. Am I sad? Honestly, no. All in all, if she had gone with me to college, I would not have met my two awesome roommates and I probably wouldn't have switched schools and I wouldn't have met the amazing people I have.

One thing I can say about losing my best friend... if someone was really your best friend, they will support you no matter what. Friends come and go. In all honesty, I only have one friend I still talk to on a daily basis from high school and we didn't even go to the same high school. My only advice for this is enjoy your friends, but always remember that not all of your friends will be in your life forever. Only your true friends will be there forever.