Love

Trust me.. This story is going to be good. Don't click away or scroll through other stories just yet. I have always been optimistic. Always looking for adventure. Mainly because it brought me excitement and an anxious feeling. I've had pretty messed up relationships in the past and even being so young, I have experienced a lot of drama. Fresh out of high school I am definitely opening my eyes to the possibilities. But, I can say that last year's summer made me realize to not look back and to look forward to what God has in store. I met a handsome young man. He has tattoos, several in which have different meanings and stories behind them. And I know what you're thinking... "Tattoos?! Must be a bad boy!" Well, you're not exactly correct but you're partially right. But don't get too excited. Our meeting wasn't planned but it wasn't an accident either. I 100 percent do not regret it. There's something about him. Maybe it's the way he looks at me. The way he makes me smile or laugh. The way he makes me feel protected and safe. Or.... when I can be myself around him 24/7 without making a complete fool out of myself. You are probably reading this with so much cringe but have you ever been in love before? Have you really felt in your heart that that person was the one. Prince Charming? Cinderella? Welp, I guess you can already tell I am in love. Oh, yeah. I've been struck by Cupid's arrow. Ugh, corny af. But it's true ladies or fellas.

Let's just say we met through a friend and yes, he is absolutely fine. My first time seeing him I was extremely nervous but confident. Why you may ask? Because there's no time to be shy. If you really want something or a certain someone, go for it. You only live once so why not make life fun and take risks? So, yes ladies and gentlemen, I gave him that look. Honestly, I was a little tipsy not going to lie, but I was determined. I really wanted him drunk or sober. I thought nothing of it once we started to talk. To tell you exactly how the conversation went, we talked about past relationships and how we wanted better. Now, I didn't think he wanted me at all since he gave off a vibe that he was just chill and didn't go for the first girl he saw like most guys. He was different. And that made me like him more. Well, we both shared an interest in music and other things that I completely forgot because I was lost in his eyes.... or I was just drunk. At the time, I wasn't talking to anyone but this guy kept blowing me up. Yes... the ex who won't stay away. So imagine your trying to talk to your crush or trying to get to know someone and your phone is blowing up! He wondered if I had a boyfriend but I told him the most honest answer I could give him. No. I could see that he was relieved. I don't make first moves at all and I could see it getting later and later throughout the night. He complimented me. He was respectful with it. More of a gentleman. And yes, if you're wondering what happens next, don't be so clueless. We kissed. Not to be corny or anything but, sparks flew that night. It was magical not even going to lie.

Nobody's perfect. Although, despite the ups and downs, in my eyes he is the most perfect human being I've come across in most of my life. It's the little things he does that is just so... what's the word? Sweet? Satisfying? I don't know but I love it. I could go on and on, but I'd sound crazy. Probably too crazy. Yeah, I had to go through people who were complete dumbasses in order to find him. I've given chances to those who didn't even deserve the love that I gave but that happens to most of us. I dealt with backstabbing friends and cheating scumbags but life goes on. Right? To be honest, I deserve a damn medal for all the times I had to deal with ignorant, self-oriented people. That is a hell of a lot to deal with, even with school, a job that didn't even last two months and trying to find the right college for the fall. Stress. Stress. Stress. Can you just go away so I can focus? Is that too much to ask? Anyways, whatever device or time your reading this at, I hope things are going well. I kind of feel like this is more of a diary entry than a story. But, oh well. Might as well tell you all more. But later on. I hope you all find the love of your life. And if you've given up. Don't. Trust me, I have been there and God blessed me. BE patient and love.