Never Apologize for Being YOU!

I have had so many relationships in my 27 years on this earth, but none were as hard as my most recent. It lasted for five years and nine months. The relationship started out rough. I was infatuated with this girl who happened to be someone's girlfriend at the time. I didn't care because I just wanted to be her friend, you know, get to know her. She was tall, beautiful coffee/toffee color skin, curly hair, and a smile that would make your heart stop. Now I had always had feelings for women, but this girl took the cake for me. I knew I had to have her in my life, whether it be a friend or whatever. We exchanged numbers and it all started from there. Eventually we ended up dating and I came out to my parents and they were furious. I was a preacher's child so that was a no-no in our home. So after a while my parents warmed up to her and she started coming around my family more. I was so happy and in love until I couldn't contain myself. I realized that I had been living a lie my entire life. She made me the happiest I had ever been in a very long time. We had our issues and problems but we were happy. We took road trips together, slept in the car when we didn't have enough money to stay in a hotel and eat, and so much more. I have never experienced love like I did when we were together, but if you are battling with a feeling that has been there a long time and you wonder why nothing goes right especially if it is feelings for the same sex then I say GO FOR IT! Life is too short to not enjoy it. You have to make yourself happy. Don't ever apologize for being you. You are going to be happy that you did. It was hard for me to admit it but once I did it was a breath of fresh air. I didn't have to worry about having to please anyone or make others happy, I was making myself happy. So be you, do what you want to do. If no one likes it oh well. No one likes to be unhappy, at least I don’t. I want my life to mean something and if it takes for me to be shunned away by family and friends so be it. If they can’t love you for who you are, they don’t love you at all. Don’t let people make you feel as if you are not good enough because you like what you like. If you were ever faced with the decision to either love who you want and make someone else happy I really hope you chose to love who you love! Friends will come and go, so will family but someone who you can love with all your heart and they love you back is very rare these days. Most people are just looking for the next thing to get them that good release and they go on about their business, but love real love does not come around every day, but when it does you have to grab a hold of it and don’t let go. I gave my heart to someone six years ago and although we have had our ups and downs and still do my love for her has never changed. I still see her as the same beautiful girl with the most gorgeous curls in the world. She has made me realize that you can’t make everyone happy except the person who looks back at you in the mirror. That is the only person who matters.