No Love Lost No Love Found

It’s been two years. Two years ago I was in love with you. Two years ago we were inseparable. Two years ago you were my best. Two years ago I could not imagine myself without you. But things all began to change. You started to distance yourself. You started to keep things from me. You chose your video games over me. You would choose to hang out with your friends instead of me. You started to complain about every little thing I did. Nothing I did was good enough for you. It was as if you had become tired of me. Tired of us. We spent three years together as a couple. But five years together as best friends. We became an old married couple bickering at each other over the littlest things. You couldn’t stand me anymore. And to be the utmost honest... I couldn’t stand you either. I never saw it coming. I couldn’t imagine myself without you in my life. And by the time we had finally called it quits, I wasn’t sad. I gave you three days with no contact. And you hardly noticed I wasn’t around. Now it’s been two years and we are merely strangers to one another. Someone I used to call my best friend has become the biggest stranger. I don’t talk to you anymore. And I don’t think about you much. I don’t regret what we had. Because I am now stronger than I have ever been. The past two years have changed me into a better person. I’ve moved on and you have too. You are merely a glimpse in my past.

I will admit that you were the first man I have ever loved. And I won’t ever forget that. I won’t forget the memories we had together. But our friendship has come to a cease and so has our love.

Moving on from these kinds of situations is what is best to do. Allowing myself to be free from that toxic relationship is what was needed in order to be happy in life. I had someone there for me to help me escape from that relationship. That person helped me realize that I could be happy without him in my life. But unfortunately this person also was not who was meant to make me happy. But I will always be thankful that he was able to show me that I could be happy without both of them around. Some relationships are overrated. And the problem is that we let people determine our happiness for us. I was unhappy in my relationship and I left so I could be happy. And I was much happier out of the relationship than I thought I could be. It is true that having someone to care for and to love makes us happy but we cannot let them determine our happiness when you place your happiness in someone's hands.

We look for love in the wrong people...

I was searching for love in the wrong person. I thought that having someone to help me find myself was what I needed. In reality what I really needed was to love myself first. I have since found love in someone else and I have never been happier. We must love ourselves first before we can love someone else. This is such a key importance in life.