Painfully Beautiful Romance

The feeling of drowning, suffocating, the weight on your chest like 100 bricks were just being piled on top of you. Do you feel it? Your body begging for more air, knowing you can, but for some reason, you can't. Can you feel the tears running down your cheeks? Can you breathe? Are you okay? You can feel the pain, can't you? Are you the only person in the room who is feeling this pain? Is everyone else smiling? Answer a question for me. Are you the only one feeling this pain?Breathe. Breathe. Don't stop breathing. Don't breathe too fast. Calm down. It's okay. Breathe. . . Are you okay?

You looked at me like I was the only person that mattered. You talked to me like I was the only person in the world that understood what you were talking about. You were like my best friend, little did I know you were going to be become the one person that would destroy me completely, but that didn't happen yet. Maybe I should back up to the beginning, where it all started.

I had entered a new world, I used to be part of a world that secluded me from many things from the real world. I didn't know so many words and the meanings behind so many common words that meant something else completely. If you are wondering what world I came from and what world I was entering, I had left a private middle school into a public high school and the world seemed so much bigger once I entered. I made friends fairly quickly. There was one person my first year there, he made me feel-special. He talked to me like I was his best friend, sound familiar? He would call me, talking to me about many things that we had in common. He would make my heart race, he made me feel like I was on air. I had never felt this connection with anyone else before. He made me promises, he said I was the one he was committed to. He made me feel like the only girl in the world. Can you feel those butterflies? In your stomach right? What is that heating sensation on my face? I can't stop smiling. All I wanted was to be completely his. I wanted to be able to feel the sensation of love. How would it feel to kiss his lips? Being able to see him smile because of me. Could he be my happily ever after?

At 14 and I'm already thinking about settling down. Could you blame me? I had never felt the sensation of being wanted by someone who also wanted me too. I felt happy, I was on air. I thought I was falling in love, but guessing by the title you can tell this is not a happy ending, because this situation is like a rose. It is beautiful to look at but touching it could hurt. I wasn't your only girl was I? You lied to me? I thought I was your only one? You made me feel special. Am I no longer special? No? Get away from me. Don't touch me. Leave. Leave my life, don't ever come back here. I never want to hear from you again. You made me believe in happily ever after. You made me feel worth it. You made me feel like I had a purpose, like I was making someones day. Now I find out that I had help from another person. I wasn't the only one that made you smile like that everyday. Leave me alone. Leave. Breathe. Please breathe. You were my first heart break. Breathe. I cried because of you. You made me believe.

Well, You weren't the one that destroyed me completely, but you did break one certain part of me. You destroyed my hope.

Yes, you weren't the first person to hurt me but you are the one who hurt me the most. You made me promises too. You also destroyed my hope and many more parts to what made me, well...me.