Random Thoughts

1. So, I know this whole thing just started, but since you already said what ya said, I'll say this: sure we only started this journey just recently, but maybe, if the big man upstairs permits, one day in the future, we will lose the like word and use the love word. Just like there's a lot of instruments in music, there are a lot of girls. However, just like you only need a saxophone for jazz, the only girl I have on my mind right now is the one that I was messaging for the last three hours. However, it felt like a lot longer then that, but lord knows I wasn't looking at the clock tick and tick cuz I was just waiting to see those dots show up and see that dark red one next to your name, and having my face grow a smile. They might say we just kids, but it's our relationship, so if they wanna hate, then one: they just jealous, and more importantly, they really don't matter. Cuz if they ain't you, who are they to talk about our relationship? They can just beat it. I don't care how much money I got if I got the one that makes me smile the most. That's what makes my motion happen. Let's just hope that your mommy and daddy, and older sister, for that matter, like me just like you do, cuz that would just make you smile even more. And I know this sucked, mostly since it's the first time having to use certain words, but I didn't hope this would be the best ever, I'm just hoping that it makes you smile and makes you feel a little bit better.

2. Even though it's not me, one day she'll find someone that makes her the happiest girl in the world and the only princess in the kingdom. Then down the line, whether it's a few months or a few years later, that someone will ask her a question. It doesn't matter where I'm at, what I'm doing, or who I'm with, cuz out of nowhere I'm smiling like a little girl. The people will ask "what you smiling for," and after a minute while still grinning from ear to ear, I'll chuckle then say, "I got my wish."

3. I got two things to live for: My family and my promises. I'll do anything but walk away from them for them, and they know it. So even if that bullet has their name on it, I'm keeping my promises. My life ain't perfect, yet I wouldn't have a life without my family. So sure, I might have a big heart and their fam might even call me family, but it's their fault for making me into what I am now. So, til the day I die, I'll keep my promises to them, no matter how painful it is to keep.

4. I'm scared, more than anything, that I'm gonna lose you, despite you saying that I won't. However, the only way I'll be able to keep my promise that I promised to you and your flesh and blood that I would protect you and watch out for you, is I get my money and come along with the next part of your life, and I can have my own place by yours. Illogical..all 120 percent of it, but you know that's what I do best. And you know by now that I'll do anything for you.

5. When the end comes, I'll watch that plane take off with a tear in my eye trying to keep it to just a tear. The plane will eventually take off, causing the sad song to start. When the plane is out of view, I'll do the slow walk through the airport. I'll get back to the office and just as the song ends, someone will ask me, "What are you doing back at work instead of taking the rest of the day off?" I'll simply smile and say, "Making her dream come true." Then the credits roll.