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Relationship Issues

Love life, one of the hardest things to understand...

By NickyPublished 6 years ago 5 min read
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Love life...

Part 1;

To start this off correctly, I'm gonna need to explain myself. I was married at a young age and divorced a year after. Was on a dating binge for most of my life after and still am. I have no kids, I guess it just hasn't happened yet. And I am far from innocent or a virgin.

The guy I'm talking to now isn't really my type. And when I say talking I mean we are doing everything but saying we are together. My reasoning is because I'm not over my ex, who I have strong feelings for but he has moved on. So I'm trying to do the same.

Plus, I know me and this guy I'm talking to is going to run into a lot of issues if we were together due to the simple fact that he's an emotional person, and I'm not. He would want affection and I would be the one feeling like if you wanna kiss me then do it, don't ask me and get mad I don't respond how you want. I'm more action-oriented. If I want to kiss you I will just do it. If you're always asking first, you lose all the surprise which makes me no longer feel swooned.

Now that we got all that out, now you can get to the nitty gritty!

Mario;

Great guy but I'm gonna leave his last name out for privacy for him.

We live am hour apart and I'm the only one able to drive at this time. Not to mention I quit my job three weeks ago due to treatment from management. Not gonna say the job's name, but just know it is fast food.

So I have no money coming in, so every few days I'd donate plasma to put gas in my car to be able to go see him or he would give me gas money after I got to him. We had an argument due to me not kissing him before I fell asleep the last time I spent the night. Because of this I went home and was going to be done talking to him but I missed him and he had messaged me saying he hoped I was having a good day and he hopes to hear from me.

Being the female I am, I waited a few hours before responding of course. So he didn't think he had me sprung or something, you know. Then I responded with I miss you too.

Luckily for me, he has a big crush on me to the point of no matter what I do he always still cares about me. So we started messaging each other back and forth again. Mostly about my job search and my family issues. On his end it was more on his feelings, the keto diet he is on and his work schedule. Lo and behold, he wanted to see me again! I couldn't say no because that's definitely what I wanted to hear.

The best thing I could think of was invite him to my super bowl party at my house, which was yesterday!

In case you're wondering this is definitely based on a series of real events.

Back to my story, he had to decline my offer due to him having to work. So now we are planning for tonight after I drop my sister off at work. Only issue with this is I don't know where my gas will be after I drop her off and I got to make it to him before I can get gas from him.

And the other side of this story is going to make you see me differently but oh well... This morning when I woke up I had a text from my ex saying he wanted to see me. I had a few reasons for me to say no.

One, he has a girlfriend.

Two, me and him mostly are all about sex when we are around each other.

Three, this might be a great guy I'm talking too.

Four, I'm on my monthly.

Five, I will just be re-sparking my feelings for someone who has someone already.

So my decision was simple, say no to him and cross my fingers for tonight. Only one bad thing, I can never make a relationship last long and the only significant other who has dealt with me the longest was my ex. What if this guy's and my time together is a waste and I end up single again. Back to square one....then I'll be back to wanting my ex and crying in my bed. The only thing that helps is me moving on....but to what or who?

My ex has recently informed me that he was unhappy, and that he has tried breaking up with her but she keeps begging him to stay saying she will change. I'm not going to go into details of his relationship but I will say this, I think he is with her to keep himself busy. Kind of like saying a child will eat their dinner just to be able to have dessert.

Meaning....he stays with her because she takes him places, gives him things, and makes him look good. Kind of like all pictures seem like they are happy but it's the complete opposite....and there's a bunch more but not things to talk about.

This is why I need to move on, he literally has me on a string, one that tightens the more we talk.

Stay tuned for part 2!!!

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