She Woke Up Different

We often wonder how far we can be pushed or what our limits are...You think you've hit the bottom, but have you really? It could always be worse. What if what you've feared would happen has now become a reality. You talked about, said it wasn't so. Then, it is, very much so true. It happened. You've been cheated on. It happened. That's all you can think. It. Really. Happened.

How long? How long was this going on right up under my nose and I had no idea. How long did everyone around me know? How many times did I look foolish not knowing? How many times did it happen, how many different girls? Where, was it in my bed where I lay my head at night? Was it in my car that he would often drive?

Do you sit here and feel sorry for yourself? Do you think, what did I do to deserve this? Is it the way I look, the way I talk, the way I act? Surely it must be me or something I've done. But, what if it's not. What if it was him, not I? Is something wrong with him.

Is he that selfish that he needs more than one person to love on? Does he need to prove himself, but in what way? I mean, I'm not ‘tooting’ my own horn here but TOOT TOOT!! I cook your dinner, I wash your clothes. I get you what you need. I supported you when you wanted to go back to school. Worked two jobs to pay the bills when you were unemployed. What else?

Maybe I was too focused on you and should have focused on myself...Did you get too much attention? Or did you like having an easy ride and you needed more of a challenge? What made you get to that point, I just wonder why you didn't mention it. Talk it out.

Where do I go from here? That's it. I've got to move on. I will forgive, but I cannot forget. But I'm still in love. How can I glue back the pieces of my heart that are now shattered on the ground of my apartment? There's not a glue super enough to hold together this mess. Time to put your big girl panties on and get your life back.

When you turn something awful that has happened to you into a drive for more in life, what can stop you? I know there are many things that can stop you, but you don't let them. Let these little (big) things in life be a speed bump in the road. Take time to find yourself again. Appreciate all the things about yourself that make you, you!

Time heals all.

Focus on the things you can control. What makes you happy? Go to the gym, get out your frustration, cry if needed. Everyone needs a good cry here and there. Go dance with your closest girlfriends, hit on a random guy at the bar. I heard in a song one time that you need to get under someone to get over someone...let's give that a thought for a while.

Get your nails done, go get your hair done. You know they say a girl who changes her hair is about to change the world. Okay, maybe no one says that, but I like the way it sounds! Don't be too guarded with love. Yes, you've been burned but that doesn't mean that all relationships will go that way.

Also, don't jump back into a relationship too soon, the wound is still open. You don't to be that 'crazy stalker' girlfriend with MAJOR trust issues. It will be hard to trust again, which is why you need to do you boo. Love yourself, be happy, be you. Then, at that point, start tiptoeing back into the dating world. Let love come to you, do be thirsty and drink the whole pond.

So go on girl, get your grove back and be the best you that you can be!