The Fire Sparked Part 2

At this very moment all I can think is, "Is this really going to happen?" I mean like I said I was very content just being by myself, I didn't want a relationship. But was that going to change if I said yes?

Me: Yeah that sounds great, when and where?

Him: I'll come to you tomorrow and then maybe we can go find a place...

Me: Okay, whats your number, I will text you my address...

"Today is the big day, I haven't gone on a date in a year! Is it a date? What should I wear? Does he even like me in 'that way'? Is it just as friends? I am so nervous now...I always do this to myself, I get so worked up to the point I shut down! Just stay calm and just be yourself." I just kept repeating to myself over and over again.

I'm sitting in my room getting ready, but not too ready because I am so not sure what this evening is going to be like. I start looking out the window for him, he said he was on his way. I see a car pull up into my drive way, I run downstairs say goodbye to my entire family and book it out the door before anyone can ask anyone anything. I think to myself, "Stay calm, you're just going to get coffee with a guy...no big deal!"

He gets out of his car and gives me a hug and very confidently say's "Hey, how are you?"

I can feel my insides freeze up so I quietly said, "Fine, you?" So far a great start! At least I didn't loose my voice, because that would have been terrible.

He opens that car door for me I get inside the car, I buckle up and I am ready to go. Now I don't know about you but my anxiety is going crazy about now, so every time I get like this I start to over think EVERYTHING. I start thinking about the most pointless small things such as what if I can't open the car door when we get to our destination? What if my buckle gets stuck and then I look like a fool for not being able to unbuckle... so on and so forth. So I start looking all over the car, where the door handle is and how to unlock the door and such. I just always get myself so worked up...

He gets into the driver's side and... he doesn't buckle up... not a good sign. So now that is making me nervous. He says, "Where do you want to go?"

Again quietly I said, "It doesn't matter to me." So he decided to drive on at that point...we ended up just going to Dunkin Donuts. But I don't drink coffee and at this point I am so nervous I can't eat anything, so I just sit there and watch him drink his large iced black coffee. I'm trying to stay calm and be myself but I couldn't get out of this funk.

I look out the window and there are the people we were at the fire with... oh great! Now how am I going to get through this, I just don't see how I can warm up to him now with all these people here. But the only good thing was I have known one of the guys for a while and I feel very comfortable around him so maybe this won't be so bad after all. He starts making jokes at my favor about not having coffee and agreeing to go out for coffee and so on. But the guy I knew that was there, his name is Matt told him, "Megan doesn't drink coffee, she never has, she is more of a tea type of girl." He looked at me and offered to get me some but like I told you I don't want to get sick or anything. But having Matt there really actually helped our night we laughed and got to know each other.

After we left Matt and everyone he brought me home and we sat outside on my porch just talking and laughing. He really was such a wonderful person, I could actually possibly see myself with him. But it's only the first time we are hanging out so I need to relax on that thought. But who knows?

It was getting late and cold, the wind was roaring and the trees were going side to side. He looked over at me and said, "I had a great time Megan, I really want to see you again... tomorrow? We can go get something to eat or see a movie anything you want.."

I told him, "I would really like that but I will text you tomorrow to let you know, goodnight Connor." I leaned in and gave him a hug and ran inside... BEST NIGHT EVER!!

I ran upstairs to my room and laid in bed just thinking about him and everything we talked about. I really like him, and I hope this turns into more.

I wake up the next morning to a message from someone I don't know... his message states, "Don't trust Connor, he likes to play with emotions get into a girl's pants and then leave. Stay away from him..."

To be continued...