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The Healer and the Anti-Hero

To all you healers: you don't need the cheap thrills of an anti-hero.

By Woman With an EdgePublished 5 years ago 3 min read
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I knew you were an anti-hero from the start. Neither a villain, or a hero. I suppose the good thing about is you don't pretend to be someone you're not. You fully know you're not the bad guy, but you're also not the good guy either. You carry a sense of morals with just a dash of bad-assery. You have a moral compass but you only follow it when it suits you. I knew all these things about you, but yet I somehow ended up talking to you anyway. Knowing it meant trouble. Knowing it meant that you would only care when it was convenient. Knowing that you're damaged goods.

Why get involved with you? Why get involved with you when I know the fates would do anything in their power to keep us apart. Because the fates know that an anti-hero and a healer don't mix.

I saw you... you were broken. And I knew I couldn't fix you. But I listened to you. You shared your broken pieces with me despite the fact that I didn't ask that of you. My broken pieces were just being put back together. I wasn't seeking your approval. But then you offered me a red pill of seduction... something you'd concocted before perhaps. I said yes... and it got deep. Emotional. I didn't want this at first.

Being a healer... I was happy to listen. I was happy to give you some healing. I'm not sure you wanted it though...

Days passed... we spent days together in a seductive haze. You Anti-Hero... you roller coaster of yes, no's, and maybe so's...

Warm. Cold. Warm. Then cold again. Yes? No? Maybe? Never? I tried to run away from you but you chased me down... and I let you convince me to stay... But then you played the hot and cold game with me again!

Now... I'm ready to spit out that damn red pill! I'm ready to leave you where you are! Because the only way an anti-hero changes is when they want to! I jump up and scream "YES!" Not because you pleasured me, but because I realize I'm free! FREE of needing your approval or the approval of any other anti-hero.

You anti-hero's, who can't seem to make up their minds... I'm WORTH MORE THAN YOUR PATRONIZING! I DON'T NEED THE EDGE YOU GIVE ME!

Long ago, I thought I needed a hero. A man who would save me from my woes and worries... When I figured out that as a healer, I could save myself... I went looking for an edge instead... I became drawn to anti-heroes... these men who just wouldn't make up their minds about me. But now, I've discovered I already have an edge.

What attracted you to me in the first place was you recognized that edge. But, unfortunately for you, I began to realize you couldn't handle it. Because you just couldn't make up your mind. No worries... Anti Hero, I hope the best for you. I hope you find whatever it is you're searching for. Shocked? You thought I was mad at you? Maybe I was for a second. But then I quickly channeled my anger towards something else: WASTED TIME.

The only people who truly value a healer are those who are ready to accept healing in their life. And the only way I'll be ready for those people is when I myself, can heal. See, what you didn't recognize is that my edge is what makes me unique; you'll never find a woman like me.

NEVER. And do you know what that edge is? It's me. It's the fact that I recognize how precious and how valuable I am, and as a result, I am able to see that same value in others, including you. I don't have any hard feelings towards you, Anti-Hero. You think you bested me? No. And I didn't defeat you, either. Instead of begging you to stay, I left you alone, because my super power, healing, becomes corrupt once forced.

So, Anti-Hero, I wish the best for you.

As for me, I will keep being the healer that I am.

I will keep my edge.

And whoever wants to come alongside me, will have to be a 100 percent match for that edge.

Photo by Anastasia Dulgier on Unsplash

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Woman With an Edge

If your heart is not in it, why do it? That's why I write.

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