The Second Love (Pt. 1)

November 5, 2018 would have marked one year with the love of my life. We dated a few weeks before then, but we made it official on November 5, 2017. Key words to remember here are "would have." As you may have already guessed, we never made it to November 5, 2018.

The name of this tale is called "The Second Love." And as you read on you will know more and more about the events that went on in my relationship. I have changed his name of course, you will know him as Ronald. I have also changed the names of others that are mentioned, but I assure you this will still be pretty raw.

I met Ronald in August 2017 for a brief moment at a downtown event. We exchanged numbers and that was that. I was already talking to someone I had met from a dating app, let's call this person Charles. Charles was handsome, smooth, and charming. No woman in their right mind could resist him really. There were many times I refrained from sleeping with him, because I knew he did not fully want a relationship, but I did enjoy his company. Ronald was a distant world to me at this time. I had a conversation with him and I did enjoy talking to him. Ronald was not necessarily my type, he wasn't ugly or unattractive, just somebody I would not usually go for.

One night, I talked him for about four hours, all the way until he was finished with his shift. He worked graveyard with a company that was not too far from where I lived. He seemed nice and sweet, but I could tell he was not a pushover. He seemed like the average man, who was just trying to do the right thing to survive in this world. At this point I was getting kind of irritated with Charles because I had to face the fact that he wasn't going to pursue a relationship with me. He had made that clear so I couldn't be too mad.

The more I talked to Ronald, the more and more I cared less about Charles. By the time I engaged in more conversation with Ronald, Charles was becoming foreign to me because I was not talking to him and I also was not going to his house anymore. I began to look forward to hearing from Ronald because he was giving me a genuine interest, plus he had a different attractive look about him that I wasn't used to. It was the first time I began to feel something real for someone in a very long time.