To Be Loved

My Dearest Love,

The stories we were told when we were little, they didn't make much sense to us back then because we were innocent and inexperienced. A lost soul looking looking for a nearly perfect host to inhabit for the rest of our imperfect lives. The world can certainly be a dark place, my love and although it may not be completely perfect it is still beautiful. From finding another lost soul in hopes of connecting with them a for lifetime, to sharing one last kiss with them. At the end of the day we are just souls that will never stop learning, even if it is our last and final breath. We are more than just this exterior coat of skin we carry with us each passing day. No one really knows when our time is up in this world, so love with your very core until your very last breath, for it is magic you carry inside of you.

Love is beautiful but what no one seems to tell you is that love costs you pain, mentally or physically. You have to be willing to make sacrifices so deep that you may feel like you are being eaten alive over and over again. There may be times where you would have to let go of those you love and it won't be the easiest thing to do in the world, but life goes on no matter how deep the scars you hold may feel. During my eighteen years of life on this earth I have lost, let go, and pushed away and even though the scars still weigh me down I keep going. At thirteen years old is when the pain and loss had occurred. I had lost person after person and hoped someone would understand where I came from but no one really did. I was too young to know what true love meant or felt like, but like some other girls, I was in love with the idea of being in love.

The biggest mistake I ever made was that I had loved others before myself, and because of that mistake I had felt like a fool, and they say only fools fall in love and if I'm being honest with myself I am one. See, that's the thing about love, when you have a taste of it you don't ever want to let go. There are days where I wanna feel a certain way again, but I know in my heart I can't let it come back for the sake of my happiness. As time went by I had been picked apart by other people I thought I loved, and at the very end the only person to pick me back up was myself, and even though I'm not fully restored yet, I can honestly say I'm me again. I can only hope that this time would be my last heartbreak, last kiss, and last love. May this be the right time to share one more breakfast, one more love letter and one last chapter.

Hopefully this may be the last chapter, to work as a team rather than enemies and to truly ride for each other, because dear its too much misunderstanding rather than taking the time to understand the other person. I can only hope we'd have the same visions and goals, and for both of us to strive for greatness. Life as you may know it is very unpredictable in some more ways than others. When you focus more on the positive, everything around you seems to change. May your dark days turn to light and may I help you seek more wisdom rather than strife.

To my future lover.