To Cheat or Not to Cheat? (Pt. 1)

Look, I really love my girlfriend. That's one thing I know for sure. And I'm new to this "creator" thing, so it's gonna be more like a diary for me. So sit back and read the most messed up story about me so far.

So about five years back, I met this girl and she ended up being a girlfriend of mine, let's call her Sara. Sara and I were pretty chill, I liked her, she loved me, and we enjoyed the times we spent together... Pretty much the sweetest thing I've ever seen, to be honest, and she was so cute!

When I and Sara STARTED dating, I was already asking out my friend of one year, she had already turned me down before but I kept pushing because I loved her and at one point she did tell me that she liked me l, but it never amounted to anything for the next two years and six months. Let's call my friend Katy.

I changed cities due to college and lost touch with Katy for two years. Sara luckily moved to the same city so we were cool, still pushing. I was actually happy being with her, to be honest. I had never gave myself time to just get to know her, who she is, where she comes from in life and just generally discover my woman but I got that chance and like I said, I was happy.

Well, happy for the two years I had lost contact with Katy. A friend of Katy's decided to just remind me of how much I loved her and asked me about her, etc... Bringing back the full force/immensity/weight of every feeling I ever felt for Katy. Look, I wouldn't say I loved Katy, I was OBSESSED.

So I did what I would probably do, that's find her number, call her, and talk to her. We hadn't spoken in two years, so I knew that I'd have to be smart in approaching and just invest my time and effort in her. We started dating six months after we got back in touch. And wow, was I genuinely happy.

But I know how to ruin a good thing. I'm a specialist. Did I tell you that while dating Sara, I was cheating? Let's call this girl Mandy... I met Mandy on Tinder, a good three months before I broke up with Sara (two years and six months expiry date overdue).

I never really paid that much attention to Mandy, to be honest. It's just Tinder! But we had a vibe. Got along. She allowed me to be crazy and wild. Wasn't as strict as the other two, she let me do me, and I kinda liked that so I kept her around as a side when I told Sara that we needed to break up.

(I told her that I was feeling guilty of cheating on her... The most haunting question she asked was "Do you want a second chance?" I knew that's how much she loved me and I had to refuse because I loved Katy MORE. It was a selfish obsession. I never heard from Sara again after that.)

Me and Katy were happy... Sort of... But I was happy to be dating my high-school crush and best friend... Only problem? We were 67 KM apart!

Seeing each other two or three times a month but it was a thrill every time we met and it kinda kept things fresh.

But of course, I'm great at messing up a great thing. It's my specialty. We grew pretty close with Mandy... A bit too unintended close. I'm talking "call her at 3 AM while drunk because she'll take care of her drunkard, let me sleep over, wake me up with food and painkillers" type of close. I kept this 3-legged pot of a relationship stable for a good year. Exactly 12 months actually. Until one stupidly unlucky night. Need part two?