To My Next Boyfriend

To my next boyfriend,

Hi. I'm Jessamine, but you can call me Jess.

As my zodiac sign I'm a libra. I'm down to earth and I'm kind of a hopeless romantic. I love anything artistic and I have a small obsession with quartz crystals. Im introverted, but once you get to know me you'll notice I become confident and outgoing. I aim high with my goals in life and I don't give up easily so if you take the time to get to know me, with due time you'll see I'm very determined with anything I set my mind to. I love coffee shops and binge watching movies while I lay my head upon your chest close enough to hear your heart beat. I overthink sometimes and it leads me to asking questions and Idon't want you to think I'm trying to argue because I truly just want a better understanding. Besides overthinking I also over love, and thats one of my biggest weaknesses so I ask that you don't take me for granted just like Idon't take you for granted.

I think you're the most attractive and sweetest guy that I have ever met and that your eyes tell a story I look forward to hearing. I want you to know that Idon't love like others, as a matter a fact I tend to over-love. You should know that I’ll be honest with you because Idon't sugar coat anything. I get attached quickly and I get jealous sometimes. I don’t like roses, but I do love Rose-mallows. As time went by I grew independent so please understand that I don’t need you, but I want you and I chose you not because I had to but because I saw a future with you. My heart can sometimes be fragile and the love I give is unconditional. I can be awkward, weird and I have a skin condition, but everyday I'm learning to love those parts of myself. I often love having deep conversations but when I can't find the right words to say to you I’ll write letters instead and pour my heart out into them.

I deal with things every now and then but I don't want that to discourage you from loving me. I spend most of my time writing or hanging out with close friends. I don't like parties, but every now and then I'll enjoy myself. I'm not a city person but I'll usually go to explore and look at the unforgettable views because each second of our life is a moment we can't ever get back. I can only live in hopes that we last a lifetime and if by any chance we don't I want you to carry a piece of me with you because I know I will. I'm fully aware that we will either marry each other or break apart and that I need you to understand that this is a commitment rather than just effort.

We will have days where we argue and we will have days where we laugh until we can't breathe. When I look at you I'll feel as if I have everything I need. As you may already know you're very special to me and I wanna share new experiences with you and grow together endlessly. When I say I want to get to know you I don't just mean your favorite color. I want to know you from the inside out, I want to know what makes you, you. To learn your past not to judge you, but understand what it took for you to get to this stage in life. I need you to know that I will always be here for you like you are for me.

As you may know, life will often present itself with many surprises and I'd like to thank you for being the best surprise I ever received. If we ever get into arguments all I ask is that you don't belittle me or turn against me, because everyday is a new day giving us a chance to start over. I won't steal your sweaters, but I will casually borrow them because it's the one thing making me feel close to you on days when we're apart. Forgive me if I stare too hard I guess it's just my way of making sure that I'm actually with you and that I'm not dreaming. I hope you love to laugh and joke around because I'll always want to laugh with you and I hope you aim high to get far in life just like I do. I love donuts, but I also love eating healthy. You should know that I'm not perfect nor do I pretend to be.

I have been let down and been picked apart over and over again, and because of that I learned to live without much expectations because it often leads to disappointments, so therefore I don't expect anything from you, all I ask is for your loyalty and support. I am willing to figure you out just like you are willing to figure me out because I can be complicated sometimes and I'm truly thankful for the patience that you have with me. I look forward to showing you a love you never knew existed, and when I tell you FOREVER no one can change that but you. I hope you love car rides just as much as I do even if we have no idea where we're going and forgive me for staring while you're driving because I’ll often look at you like you're the only thing in the world for me. If I stare a little too long you may see that I’ll start to smile and tear up but thats only because I really appreciate you much more than you'll ever know.

There is more to each of us and a much deeper meaning of what we think love is. There’s more to me than you'll ever know and theres more to you than I'll ever know so we'll have to figure each other out. I know for a fact that once you figure me out you'll realize that I’m my own kind of person and I'll keep it real with you because I'm not like everyone else I'm my own kind of different and much more than a label. Whenever you need me I’ll be here as your best friend and lover because there will be days where you will go through things and I’ll be that shoulder you need. It’ll be like alchemy, we just water each other and go through amazing growths together. I need you to know that our love isn't coincidental because it has taken me about a dozen heartbreaks to get to you.

To my next boyfriend, I can't wait to meet you.