To the Love We Give

It's has been 5 falls, 5 winters, and 4 summers since the day we met. When you met me I was full of love, joy, passion, and ambition. I had my future all planned out in my mind. These plans were made ever since my first unexpected visit from a not so welcomed friend every girl encounters each month. Then you came to me like a deer in the open road at night, unexpectedly and with full force. When we met it was as if all of those plans I had made no longer went according to the program. No matter how much I tried to stay on the timeline I had already created, it just all came back to you.

You see, as a child, I had both parents who showed me a tremendous amount of love and affection. So in other words, my cup overflowed with love, compassion, understanding, and patience. All these things were instilled in me because of them, my ama and pa. I knew the moment I saw you that you had something special. At the time you never saw it in yourself, which made us go through many trials and tribulations. But you see the thing is, those trails and tribulations were yours and not mines. I understood that so well that I knew what I was getting myself into. I understood you and I wanted you.

I could see the pain in your eyes, the emptiness in your soul, the hollowness of your voice. I know that what you needed was true love. Love, at first sight, is just a myth, there's no such thing. We chose who we want to love and who is worth fighting for, so I chose you. Every other girl you had didn't want you for you but rather because they expected things from you. I didn't, because I knew. I knew your biggest secret. During your lifetime you've told me how you lost so many important figures in your life at a young age. Because of this what you lacked was love and affection. I knew what you did wasn't to hurt me but rather to prevent hurting yourself.

I understood that you weren't in the perfect condition to satisfy my needs, but because I saw in you what you could be I stayed. I turned my selfishness into selflessness and shared my cup that overfilled with love. I was satisfied with just knowing each day that my love and patience would eventually pay off, for you to see who I always saw. Even though sometimes it felt like my desires for you were far out of reach. Every time you did something that cut me open it would heal, almost as if I was invincible. But that was only because my cup continued to overflow with what your cup lacked. You tried so hard to fight it, to not take a sip, but like a friend on someone's 21st birthday I encouraged you to keep on drinking.

Here we are now, a whole 5 years and counting. Till the end of time, I will continue to choose you and help you see the man you really are. Cheers to the man you are and will be. Cheers to the love we give.