To the Man I Gave Up Everything For

I am not going to go into the details about how our relationship started, but here is a long story short: We met and the connection we had was intense. There was something there in him that I needed and craved every minute of every day. We needed each other, but it was not that simple. Our relationship started on rocks. We were constantly on and off; we could never meet in the middle. No matter how hard we tried, we ended up finding ourselves back into each other's arms. Then we finally got to a steady chapter and started a family. We decided it was time to get married and our future started building. Somehow, in the midst of it all, it got crushed.

I was young and I was in love, again. I didn't listen to anybody. I only listened to you because you were right. I hurt so many important people in the process of leaving everything for you, but they all still stayed. Only one person left and that was my childhood best friend. I don't even think I can mend that back, but we both have our lives. We have both moved on, and that is okay.

Things are rough right now, and I am in a low point in my life. This is all I want, and I promise it is simple: I need time and space.

Yes, we are still married, but sometimes we all need to find ourselves. Maybe we are meant to be, but we did it wrong. We loved when we shouldn't have loved, and that's okay. We crossed paths for a reason, but maybe it's time to find our own path to a different happiness.

Now, I know you may think that we are each other's happiness, but how did we end up here? I don't have the answers to anything right now. Maybe this is a test, or maybe this is a sign, but it is so heartbreaking to not know any of the answers.

If we can't work it out, I want you to know that I want you to take the time to find your own happiness. Find a girl that you're willing to change for the better. I am not saying bow down to her feet, but you need to change, you need to become a better version of you. Find someone you are willing to do that for. Put your hands on her in a genuine, caring way. When you find her, hold her, and carry her with dignity. She will be lucky to have you too.

You can also find another girl who will accept you for who you are, but I will let you know, that girl is not me. We both need to change because we do not like each other for who we are together. That's okay. It happens.

I want us to both be truly happy and that starts out with finding who we truly are. I am not the person for you, and you are not the person for me. They say that when you find the one you just know. Maybe we thought we knew, but we really didn't. We felt butterflies and an electrical connection that sizzled through us. Maybe, just maybe, we need to find one who puts peace in our hearts and that keeps us calm.

Now I know that I could be wrong, but I could also be right. We have to accept what's coming and we have to face our fears. No matter what, as long as we stay at peace, and as long as we stay humble, I think we can accomplish anything we put our minds to.