To the Toxic Person in My Life

Today I pray for you. I pray that you find peace in the world, peace within yourself. I pray you can learn to love yourself enough to not tear others down. I hope one day you can be so genuinely confident in yourself and your thoughts that you don’t feel the need to push them on others. One of the greatest feelings is being able to live drama free, even if that means separating yourself from negative people in your life. I pray that you will have the strength to forgive all that have hurt you so you will no longer be angry all the time.

One day you will be able to walk through life with no enemies and I hope you wont feel the need to create more. I pray you learn to actually listen to what others are saying—not just hear them but actually listen and take into account their feelings. You go through life bullying anyone one who doesn’t think or act like you. No regards for anyones feelings or personal struggles. You’re quick to talk behind someones back to anyone who will listen even if its somebody you just met. It causes people to create a barrier between you and themselves. It makes them question if that is how you talk about them behind their back.

You push your beliefs on everyone, even if they have specifically told you thats not how they believe or they don’t agree. I pray you learn that not everyone has to agree with you and its not your job to change their mind,. It will bring you so much peace in life. You walk into someone's life and immediately want to change and control everything they do… Its toxic. You will find that people no longer want to be around you or have minimum contact with you. You will stretch the truth to make you look better or to make people feel sorry for you. You always have to come out on top. If I slept bad, you slept worse.

It's exhausting to be around. Its truly exhausting to walk on eggshells around you so that I don’t say something I know you don’t agree with just so I don’t have to hear you tell me how wrong I am or that you think my idea is so stupid. You believe money will solve everyones problems, I pray you can learn the true values of life and no longer be so superficial. When you continue to have constant drama in your life, take a look at the bigger picture.

Are you the common denominator, are you the problem? None of this is set in concrete, you have the power to change all of this. No one is perfect, lord knows there's a lot that I need to work on within myself. We all have issues, but how we choose to deal with them will make a huge difference in your life. I hope that one day you will succeed in truly loving yourself, so that you no longer feel the need to tear others down. Once this is accomplished I would love to mend our relationship. Until that day, I will continue to pray for you.