Tunnel Vision

Damn the day I met you! I started a new job, which I was so excited about. I came in to help setup this new store alongside my manager. After a few hours of being there, it was time to introduce ourselves to the team. I go up to the floor and there you were. Out of all the people sitting in the same area, my vision went straight to you. The light happened to be shining its brightest over your big head. You were wearing a light blue button up and what looked like black chinos and your energy looked amazing. Now as I looked at you, in my head I said, "Wow he is cute!!! Ugh but you have a boyfriend, you have a boyfriend!" I had to shake my head and keep it moving. When it was time for you to introduce yourself you mention that your birthday's coming up and you're going to propose to your girlfriend that day, thats when it was a definite no no, "Girl! keep it moving." After this we took a group photo and i stood next to him, not on purpose just to get out of the way, and he says, "You wanna see the picture?" I say "of course" and he proceeds with, "I can send it to you, whats your number?" Now this was all done innocently as O let the thought of his appearance go. I went on to text my boyfriend and let him know about my day and went home.

As we brought in the opening of the store my coworker and I became pretty cool with one another. He was chill and funny and knew sooooo much about the tech world that I would be drooling over his smarties in my head. Within that month we got so cool that he invited me to his birthday party where he was gonna propose to his girlfriend. Now this was a secret because he didn't invite everyone he kew just the people he had a really close friendship with. So there I go share my facebook with him to get this invite and I go. Now while all of this is going on, my boyfriend had decided to go back to the army because he wasn't happy here and wanted something stable for himself and his future. I was obviously upset over this because my boyfriend and I had been chasing each other since elementary school but he needed to do this and I supported. The day of my coworker's party I had a busy day. I had a baptism, a baby shower and this engagement party to attend. I go to the baptism with my boyfriend and then go to my friends baby shower alone and then I also go alone to the engagement party. I don't know anyone here except for the one who invited me and I met his girlfriend. I met his parents and family, as I was placed in the same table as they were because, again, I didn't know anyone. I then eventually got up for food and found another seat and sat there quietly. His father then sat next to me we spoke and asked to dance. After the dancing his dad said, "You may wanna start recording" as if i didn't know what was about to happen, and so I did. It was sweet i never got to see a proposal in person before so I enjoyed it. A while later my coworker had come up to me and said I was way too quiet for his liking because I'm not normally like this, he places me at a table with more people from our company but different locations. I hit it off instantly with this boy and we had a blast. We danced we took pics and stayed till the end of it all. I spoke with his fiancée, his parents, and then my new friend drove me home. Again everything innocent and friendly as can be.

We returned to work and everyone at work was trying to figure out how come I got invited even though we just met and no one else did—they knew him longer than I did and no invite. Thats where the rumors started, "I think he likes you like actually likes you." I paid no mind to it, he just got engaged and I'm happy with my boyfriend despite the soon to be distant relationship.

We hit four months of working together and we got closer. Started telling each other things I wouldn't normally tell others. We had a cookie obsession and we would always satisfy that cookie craving. There would be a few nights where he would text me at like 10pm wanting to talk about work, and to me that wasn't right. I'd respond and then ask where his girl is and she'd either be at the gym, working on something or sleeping. So I would say ok cool goodnight see ya at work. AND THEN IT HAPPENED...IT MOTHER FLIPPIN HAPPENED... I DREAMT OF HIM!!! It was a dream of being at work and we were about to enter the sales floor and we kissed before opening the door. BRO!!!!! After that dream I couldn't give him real eye contact like before. Things were changing and I was not there for it. A few days later he messages me at night again and tells me he had a dream about me and was curious. My goodness I told him my dream and told him this isn't right he's engaged and its wrong. But curiosity got the best of us and wanted to give it a try. Things were definitely not the same after that.

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