Unexpressed Feelings, Undeclared Words

"I like you a lot, more than words can say. I've been talking to you everyday in hopes that you'll stay. Your smile is lovely; It has a way of brightening my day. In person, you make me so nervous, I try to avoid looking you in the eye, maybe it's because I'm very shy. Even the slightest touch from you gives me a crazy feeling inside. You've made me fall for you in a short amount of time, but, I'm okay with it because you're an amazing guy."

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"All my love I give to you,

For you're the one my heart belongs to.

Happiness is what you've given to me,

Deep down you've set me free.

The days we spent apart,

I realized how much you meant to me.

I missed you dearly.

I'm holding on to you.

Please don't let me go."

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"I feel empty inside,

I'm clenching my teeth together to keep from crying

Do I give up or do I keep trying?

Someone told me there's another girl.

Were they lying?

Holding back the tears, I gotta keep smiling

I'm broken but there's no point in whining

The bit of love I felt from you has already started dying."

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"You told me I'm beautiful.

Am I still pretty when I'm crying?

Do you like the redness in my eyes?

Did you notice?

Did the thought of it being your fault even cross your mind?

You told me I have no emotions.

If that were the case,

Why do I feel so sad inside?

I was happy with you.

Now you can't even look me in the eye.

In three months you made a great impact on my life.

You were so sweet and you were so nice.

Seemingly innocent too

Lies.

Lies.

Lies.

I fell hard for you

Apparently you fell for me too.

Was it your plan to pull me close to you and leave me behind?"

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To the guy who hurt me last,

Written above are some things I wrote about you, while you were on my mind of course. You've only ever read the first part.

I think of you often. Way too much if you ask me. What happened between us was the closest I've been to really loving someone. Which is why it was so hard for me when you dropped me for somebody new. It's rare for me to feel love for others and to genuinely care for them. You were special to me.

It was out of the ordinary for me to completely break down my walls and let you in, but you acted as if you'd never do anything to hurt me, so I didn't mind; I had enough trust in you to believe you were too innocent to turn your back on me, but that is exactly what you did. Something I loved about you was you didn't care who was around when you held my hand, you would act as if we'd been together for months on end, you had everyone who seen us together fooled. I loved to be seen in public with you, it made things feel so real, because you wouldn't dare be seen with someone who didn't mean anything to you, right?

I'm over everything I felt towards you, whether it be hatred or the fact I really liked you, but, sometimes I just try to understand why you did some of the things you did. Why go through the trouble of taking me out and meeting my family if you had no intention of sticking around? Why trick my family, friends, and I into thinking I meant the world to you when you lied about wanting a future with me in it.

I know one day you'll mature and stop treating girls like they're the only one you've ever seen, but until then I hope you get what's coming to you. If you haven't already that is.

Sincerely,

A player in your game.