What's the Deal with Relationships Today?

Recently, for whatever reason I started online dating again. I was on a few for a brief amount of time back when I was studying in New York a couple months ago. So I figured now that I'm in a completely different state (California) that should mean a whole new set of eligible males. Unfortunately though, to no surprise once again, I feel like I'm wasting my time. It seems like you either deal with the sex-driven jerks, ugly creepers, or guys that are simply just not for you on free sites. Or, you have to pay for quality service for quality guys on others, and being a college student option two really isn't an option. My thing is I'm someone who is twenty years old hoping to find a nice, good-looking guy, who isn't just after sex. Am I the only one who feels like that shouldn't be too much to ask?

Yet it must be because here I am struggling to find a decent, good-looking guy. Of course to find the right one there shouldn't be too many options but I just find it hard to believe that it would be this impossible to find someone. Then when I seem to find someone of great potential, they either delete their account or stop responding or block me simply from me saying hello.

I mean yes I am only twenty, some people might take that to think why are you even making a big deal about this? And men my age usually aren't very mature and are only interested in having "fun." My thing is I'm not looking to necessarily spend the rest of my life with the next guy I meet, I just want to find my ideal guy who I can experience things with, get me to be more outgoing and just make life more fun with. And yes I feel like I'm being an awful person when I turn away a guy that seems perfectly nice or sweet that I don't find good looking, but it doesn't change the fact that I want to be physically attracted to whom I talk to as well. Is that really that bad to want? For me I feel like asking too much is looking for a guy who is filthy rich, has a doctorate, drop-dead gorgeous, multi-talented, a family man, and ready to get married right now. I could go on and on, point is I'm not asking for a guy who just came out of the perfect romance novel or movie. This is real life, it doesn't quite work like that for most of us. I'd honestly just want to find someone who can be romantic, funny, ambitious, honest, loyal, and moderately good looking, and who wouldn't want that?

If you haven't figured out yet, I've always been pretty mature for my age hence the reason why I just don't understand any of this. Plus people always say age is but a number — so why would it even matter how old I am to want something decent and real in a relationship right now? Either way I'm sure I'm not the only female my age dealing with this problem, unless I really am just that abnormal compared to my fellow millennials. But here I am, a nice girl, going to a performing arts college, who has sometimes been called smart, talented, attractive, and even funny on rare occasions and for a number of people all those factors would be huge pluses. Yet for the ones that I have actually been interested in it just doesn't seem to be enough.