Why I Love You...

Why I love you…

First things first, I’m not writing this because I want you back because reality is I know it will never happen…

I’m writing it, so one day you can look back and remember why I love you…

I don’t love you because of the way you treated me nor because you love(d) me …

I love you because you are simply you…

You are like a breath fresh air, like a book that I can never put down, like the ocean, it’s beautiful on the surface, but when you explore the depths of it, it’s even more breath-taking ..

You work harder than anyone I’ve ever known.

Your caring heart might get you hurt at times, but it’s also why so many people adore you.

Your sense of humor, your corny jokes, can brighten up anyone’s day.

Your outgoing personality, you’re the “I can start a conversation with anyone" guy.

You’re so supportive, to all those you know, which is what makes you a great friend, brother, and son.

Your vision on life, the way you live it, made me want to live it with you forever.

You’re so passionate about everything, which is why you can get angry so easily, but it is still simply amazing.

You are simply amazing.

You helped me grow, you taught me how to fully accept someone, how to fully accept myself, you showed me unconditional love, you taught me what love is and what it isn’t...

You made me realized that love does not hurt. Love is supposed to make you feel at peace. Love brings happiness. Love makes you feel safe. Love feels like home. What hurts is the pain you feel from feeling unwanted, feeling alone when you are with the person you love the most… the lies, the manipulation, the wrongful assumptions, getting ignored and heartbreak, those things are not love.

As we were parting ways, you told me you did not feel that spark anymore and you did not want to try to light it up. You had given up. After that moment, you showed me you are not the man for me, you are not the one. From all the pain I endured, I learned that love is more of a choice than it is a feeling. You chose to stop loving me, which I have come to fully accept. Love is choosing to fully accept someone as they are in that very moment, whether it be when they are happy or sad or when they have not reached their full potential or when they are struggling to find a job or even when they get the promotion. It’s choosing to be there with them through the ups and downs. It’s not quitting when things get rough. It’s choosing to put in more effort when you feel the spark starting to fade. True love never gets lost.

I thank you though, without you I still would have not truly understood what it means to love, what it means to be in a healthy relationship or how I am supposed to feel in a healthy relationship.

You prepared me for my husband, the man that will never stop choosing to love me and will accept me as I am now and who I will be in the future. You prepared me for my children, the ones who will show me a love that I have yet to experience.

Although I will not be a part of your future, I’m still excited for you and all that you’re going to accomplish. Best of Luck, mi amor.

The spark I have for you will never fade.

Love,

JV