Coping With Anxiety
It's funny. At this very moment, I'm listening to the Dear Evan Hansen soundtrack, in which Evan has mild anxiety. My anxiety only really started in middle school. Why? Because I had this so-called friend who tried to turn all my friends against me. Seriously, I'm not kidding. They'd say lies about me and people would come back to me and say, "I can't believe you said that about me" or "You're an awful person." I cried a lot because they were taking their disliking of me out of proportion. LOL...says the person who has anxiety. I would ask to go to the bathroom and then cry. I was pretty good at hiding the fact that I would have panic attacks and cry because of them, up until one day. They had this girl go and send hate to me for no absolutely reason. I broke down crying and went to my teacher about it. The person behind all the problems I was having got nothing said to them. So much for a "no tolerance" bullying policy, right? I forgave them after all they did to me and they just kept hurting me and hurting me. I've finally pushed them out of my life because I couldn't handle all they've been doing to me. I kept messaging my mom asking her to pick me up from school one day because I couldn't handle it. My mom didn't pick me up, but I can understand why. It was only second block. I needed to suck it up. It took a lot of attempting to calm myself down in the bathroom for me to finally go back to class. For the rest of the day, I was stuttering and trying to avoid eye contact.